Honestly right, when I think of the months ahead of me, I'm scared, because I don't know what is it going to be like. Am I going to stay in Boston? Or move to LA. Should I go back to Malaysia? If so, when and how long? What is there left in Malaysia for me with my film scoring paper? I know the food and people, the Malaysia-LAH language and the 365 sunny weather are the ones I dearly miss. I only left with 3 more semesters and then college life is gone! Just like that. And then what's next? Work. And probably entering the most complicated part of life- relationships with people.
The studying phase will soon past, no more classes, no more lecturers to lecture you anymore. And then we're out there dealing with fierce graduates competing with each other in the industry, making every effort to carve a name out of ourselves, and facing with intimidating (probably nice) bosses too, depending on how we present ourselves to them, whether they would like to hire us or not. And all the other things to think of soon. Good thing it's the film industry for me, otherwise I would have to hire and book a booking agent, get an engineer to produce an EP, book studios all the time for recording, the 3am sessions, build a website (wait a second, I have to build my own website !) and other tools for non-film scoring work.
Anyway, the point is, with my own strength, I can never make it. The right thing to do is to ask God. Well, and times like this he hasn't given me a clue yet because it's not the time for me to know yet. In a relationship, we have to trust. If I can't trust God who is the perfect one, will I ever trust another then? #Learninghowtobeinarelationship
Also, this is my first time traveling on an alienated highway, with a few cars passing by because not many people choose to travel here. This business feels very real, competitive and different because it is uncommon. It is art. Being creative in so many ways is part of being in this field. We become creative when we meet people and connect with them, writing music and, basically we're marketing ourselves out there, our talents and personalities, hoping that the big fish would take notice of us little guppies and land us with a good job that comes with a happy salary. There, I've said it. No graduates would want to be a mediocre after dumping in our parents large sum of USD in this place.
Dad will tell me this : Don't use your own intellect. You smarter than God ah?
I generally want my life to be a walking storybook that inspires many to realize that there is a God to help us out in our lives. Not only just in this part of life, but life after this life, which brings all our toils, struggles and sufferings to an end and live with Him, the Creator in a better place than this world. And see our friends there too! God can help us to pay the bills, manage our time, inspire us to write a wonderful piece of music, have a heart warming, life-changing conversation with a stranger or a friend, inspire, encourage and point them to Jesus that he is so loving, ready to hold us up again when we face with nastiness of life, and so on.
At the end of the day, I just wanna' see how God uses my life as a small town, shy-shy girl to be that influential person in this industry. God wants us to be successful too and He is bigger than the heart. He is bigger than all our fears and dreams. I'm only confident about that one day, just because of who God is, nothing about me. I'm the hands and feet of God's.
Showing posts with label music. Show all posts
Showing posts with label music. Show all posts
Monday, March 17, 2014
Spring Break
First break ever without the need to travel! Pretty happy about it. Managed to catch up some sleep vacation.
Maybe I've missed out going to New York or Maine or the Niagara Falls this time like all my friends where they are right now. Hopefully there'll come a time I'll travel with my friends again and that would be an amazing fun time without having assignments at the back of my head, screaming.
Basically, most of the film scoring majors are that stressed up because our major demands a lot from us (whadid I got myself into, trust God hah!). Now that I know it's normal for us to feel that way. sometimes wanting to just float in air, but the hard work we put in now will eventually pay off. Toil now better than later.
There's plenty of comfort food around. But nothing beats that comfort 'food' from the Bible. The story of Joseph will always be that torchlight for me. So here're some pictures from my Instagram and FB.
Maybe I've missed out going to New York or Maine or the Niagara Falls this time like all my friends where they are right now. Hopefully there'll come a time I'll travel with my friends again and that would be an amazing fun time without having assignments at the back of my head, screaming.
Basically, most of the film scoring majors are that stressed up because our major demands a lot from us (whadid I got myself into, trust God hah!). Now that I know it's normal for us to feel that way. sometimes wanting to just float in air, but the hard work we put in now will eventually pay off. Toil now better than later.
There's plenty of comfort food around. But nothing beats that comfort 'food' from the Bible. The story of Joseph will always be that torchlight for me. So here're some pictures from my Instagram and FB.
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| We're about to walk on thin ice- it's a pond! |
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| Texas and Korean friends on the way to Haymarket |
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| Boston Common |
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| One of HIS Church members visited Boston. It was heart warming. |
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| I promised I walked away LOLOL |
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| Champions at JW Marriot |
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| Our dinner was on a friend :) |
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Soundtracks that moved the inside of me
Honestly, Harry Potter's soundtracks are so darn good !
Well done, John Williams ! I've always love your works.
It was the soundtracks who made the movie magical, fun and believable.
Period.
If it wasn't for the music that have enhanced Harry Potter, it may not be as successful as it is.
One of my favorites is the "Reunion of Friends" in Chamber of Secrets. That is one very emotional moment for me. I will cry every time I listen to that, at the age of like 8-9 and even now, 21. It reminds me of the hard times Harry went through together with his friends, and now that he has all his best friends with him at the dining hall, he is one happy kid. That reminds me of all the friends that I had too growing up. We viewed the score in class, personally given by John Williams the composer some time ago, how awesome ! Think about that, when we were kids growing up watching these movies, they made us believed them for some time and when I was pretty engrossed with it, I actually joined a competition to see if I can win tickets for me and my sis to meet Daniel Radcliffe and get the Hogwarts tour, unbelievable! Now that I get to read the scores in class, it was actually the music that worked in me.
There's a project coming up for us to score a short mysterious Library Train to encourage young kids to read. It should be scored lightly something like Harry Potter. JW, you have set the standard high ! Tapao everyone. Love your work, as always.
PS: Yes I'm very aware of the whole movie thing that the christians are against it. The scores for HP are still simply amazing though ! Can learn so much from it. JW has put in lots of feelings when he writes.
Well done, John Williams ! I've always love your works.
It was the soundtracks who made the movie magical, fun and believable.
Period.
If it wasn't for the music that have enhanced Harry Potter, it may not be as successful as it is.
One of my favorites is the "Reunion of Friends" in Chamber of Secrets. That is one very emotional moment for me. I will cry every time I listen to that, at the age of like 8-9 and even now, 21. It reminds me of the hard times Harry went through together with his friends, and now that he has all his best friends with him at the dining hall, he is one happy kid. That reminds me of all the friends that I had too growing up. We viewed the score in class, personally given by John Williams the composer some time ago, how awesome ! Think about that, when we were kids growing up watching these movies, they made us believed them for some time and when I was pretty engrossed with it, I actually joined a competition to see if I can win tickets for me and my sis to meet Daniel Radcliffe and get the Hogwarts tour, unbelievable! Now that I get to read the scores in class, it was actually the music that worked in me.
There's a project coming up for us to score a short mysterious Library Train to encourage young kids to read. It should be scored lightly something like Harry Potter. JW, you have set the standard high ! Tapao everyone. Love your work, as always.
PS: Yes I'm very aware of the whole movie thing that the christians are against it. The scores for HP are still simply amazing though ! Can learn so much from it. JW has put in lots of feelings when he writes.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Falling in Love
Finally :)
After agonizing over a semester and nearly two months, I'm falling in love with DP. When I start to know what are his characters like and what he can do, I really like how he connects with everyone, in and out. The late night hours at the lab spending time with you, sometimes at home alone in the room really drives me up the wall a couple of times. But after those time and effort invested learning about you, I'd say, you are amazing !! Now I can do all my work with you besides Logic. Both are great lovers woohh !
No sooner, we'll be the awesome duo :D Mr. Digital Performer 8.05, I think you're pretty cool yourself.
After agonizing over a semester and nearly two months, I'm falling in love with DP. When I start to know what are his characters like and what he can do, I really like how he connects with everyone, in and out. The late night hours at the lab spending time with you, sometimes at home alone in the room really drives me up the wall a couple of times. But after those time and effort invested learning about you, I'd say, you are amazing !! Now I can do all my work with you besides Logic. Both are great lovers woohh !
No sooner, we'll be the awesome duo :D Mr. Digital Performer 8.05, I think you're pretty cool yourself.
Monday, February 17, 2014
Yer... why like that one
Ugh. The art world is sometimes weird. Sorry about the title, wasn't thinking one that fits this. Stuffs that we learn in class can be quite peculiar and odd. I knew days like these would come. And often I'm afraid, because what we take in can very much influence what comes out from us too- in whatever form, writings, paintings, drawings, words, thinkings, etc.
For example, images are very powerful, especially for people like me whose learning language are through vision. The books that we were assigned to read, films that we watch, and pictures that were projected in class (but thank God our scoring projects aren't anywhere near to weirdness yet[for me], for now) will stay and sit on the brain for some time. It's not like there's a choice to pick, because it's part of the syllabus. It's not like learning Biology anymore- straight forwardness about frogs and how their lungs function. Often, arts have to do with the human imaginations and I really do not like how I'm supposed to internalize some of them so that I can do my homework.
Sometimes I doubt at the visions I have whether are they from God or not anymore because I might have mixed them up together somewhere, or not.
No matter how much I filter those images, and set my intentions right when I take them in (all for the sake of homework), I wish that all those artsy studies will go by real quickly. I just wanna' score music for motion pictures !
For example, images are very powerful, especially for people like me whose learning language are through vision. The books that we were assigned to read, films that we watch, and pictures that were projected in class (but thank God our scoring projects aren't anywhere near to weirdness yet[for me], for now) will stay and sit on the brain for some time. It's not like there's a choice to pick, because it's part of the syllabus. It's not like learning Biology anymore- straight forwardness about frogs and how their lungs function. Often, arts have to do with the human imaginations and I really do not like how I'm supposed to internalize some of them so that I can do my homework.
Sometimes I doubt at the visions I have whether are they from God or not anymore because I might have mixed them up together somewhere, or not.
No matter how much I filter those images, and set my intentions right when I take them in (all for the sake of homework), I wish that all those artsy studies will go by real quickly. I just wanna' score music for motion pictures !
Saturday, February 1, 2014
That Piece of Chunk
A writer cannot write unless one has the foundation of alphabets, then words, then grammars and sentences, to phrases and to the powerful use of vocabularies and then comes the birth of his writing style.
Same thing goes for the composers- To write a good piece of music, first know the names of the notes, countings, then the grammars which includes intervals, harmony, etc. to sketching out simple melody lines, then a beautiful phrase and adding in the harmonics (also known as chords), and finally creating a whole piece of music that comes from our own.
That's a whole lot of process !
And it takes time !!
It can be long, and some can be short.
Saying this as to produce a good piece.
Berklee is just literally feeding us (non-stop!) the informations and it's for us to digest them as efficiently and effectively as possible. That's a lott to learn, now that I see it. Time management. Veh important. It felt like fishes were falling from the sky into my boat and I really have to get started working to sort em' out.
Hope to have that kind of break from school a little while to actually absorb properly the chunks of knowledge given, according to my learning speed. At the end of it, rushing into this career isn't my goal unless the knowledge has properly absorbed well first. We also need to keep up with the technologies and know how to use them! That's... another thing to keep in mind of. Practicing piano becomes the least focus already, but it's still needed because we're musicians. Oh dear.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Even if it involves the great time pressure. But God is mightier than the time pressure.
Loving this field. Crazy though.
Same thing goes for the composers- To write a good piece of music, first know the names of the notes, countings, then the grammars which includes intervals, harmony, etc. to sketching out simple melody lines, then a beautiful phrase and adding in the harmonics (also known as chords), and finally creating a whole piece of music that comes from our own.
That's a whole lot of process !
And it takes time !!
It can be long, and some can be short.
Saying this as to produce a good piece.
Berklee is just literally feeding us (non-stop!) the informations and it's for us to digest them as efficiently and effectively as possible. That's a lott to learn, now that I see it. Time management. Veh important. It felt like fishes were falling from the sky into my boat and I really have to get started working to sort em' out.
Hope to have that kind of break from school a little while to actually absorb properly the chunks of knowledge given, according to my learning speed. At the end of it, rushing into this career isn't my goal unless the knowledge has properly absorbed well first. We also need to keep up with the technologies and know how to use them! That's... another thing to keep in mind of. Practicing piano becomes the least focus already, but it's still needed because we're musicians. Oh dear.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Even if it involves the great time pressure. But God is mightier than the time pressure.
Loving this field. Crazy though.
Thursday, January 30, 2014
New Stuffs, A Little Intimidating
Everything's new to me for this Spring semester- the recording session, standing on the conducting stage, working with live musicians, the engineers etc.
*Gulps
*Gulps one...more...time.
Take care of me ah God heheh, please.:)
And all the homework, here we go ahhhhhgain ! Woohh, time management is a skill that must be learnt and acquired for all college students.
This sem has tonnes of analysis, scoring, recording and producing. Oggkay, lets...!
*Gulps
*Gulps one...more...time.
Take care of me ah God heheh, please.:)
And all the homework, here we go ahhhhhgain ! Woohh, time management is a skill that must be learnt and acquired for all college students.
This sem has tonnes of analysis, scoring, recording and producing. Oggkay, lets...!
Sunday, January 19, 2014
The Good Break
School is starting this week !! Tuesday!
Back to school, back to packing stuffs and meeting new and fantastic musicians from all over the places!
That spontaneous trip to Connecticut was a gift of having that feeling, HOME. Definitely, it was a good recharged in that less than 2-day thing, it felt like one refreshing moment for me to go on the rest of my stay here. (Pictures are in my Instagram and FB.)
Berklee has this new 160 dorm and it doesn't even look like a dorm ! It's a hotel for students. They even have a PH on the highest floor whattt in the world ??!?
The cafeteria is super canggih with a light wooden stage for students to perform. The hall was (I bet) designed to have that acoustic environment customized for shows to take place. Amahhhzing.
Looking forward to new things this semester. Are you too?
:) I think, this semester is going to be a Round 2, Level 2 in my game. Praying for capacity to increase and expand to absorb and learn more new things. It's a continuity from last year, like a series, the next episode.
Lots of things to do. Plan things with the Big Boss! This is important. Life is interesting- interestingly challenging.
Back to school, back to packing stuffs and meeting new and fantastic musicians from all over the places!
That spontaneous trip to Connecticut was a gift of having that feeling, HOME. Definitely, it was a good recharged in that less than 2-day thing, it felt like one refreshing moment for me to go on the rest of my stay here. (Pictures are in my Instagram and FB.)
Berklee has this new 160 dorm and it doesn't even look like a dorm ! It's a hotel for students. They even have a PH on the highest floor whattt in the world ??!?
The cafeteria is super canggih with a light wooden stage for students to perform. The hall was (I bet) designed to have that acoustic environment customized for shows to take place. Amahhhzing.
Looking forward to new things this semester. Are you too?
:) I think, this semester is going to be a Round 2, Level 2 in my game. Praying for capacity to increase and expand to absorb and learn more new things. It's a continuity from last year, like a series, the next episode.
Lots of things to do. Plan things with the Big Boss! This is important. Life is interesting- interestingly challenging.
Thursday, December 19, 2013
I'm lovin' it !
Seeing some of the girlie friends I know, female film composers graduating from Berklee or have graduated already makes me so proud of the number of female composers in this industry !
Though it's not a huge number, BUT we are growing ! We can write music too. And though there's the huge debate on gender issues of who writes the better music in specific genre, well... we all have emotions- man or woman. So do our best in writing that right feeling in our music to match what's on the screen. And this... takes time to learn and grow and mature in our writing, observation and feelings.
I'd tell you, film scoring is really really an interesting job. LOVE it every single day !
Though it's not a huge number, BUT we are growing ! We can write music too. And though there's the huge debate on gender issues of who writes the better music in specific genre, well... we all have emotions- man or woman. So do our best in writing that right feeling in our music to match what's on the screen. And this... takes time to learn and grow and mature in our writing, observation and feelings.
I'd tell you, film scoring is really really an interesting job. LOVE it every single day !
Monday, December 16, 2013
Sanity
You have nuuu idea how many countless times I feel like giving up this STUFF.
11 classes with 16 full credits is no joke. To cramp the learning information (which comes like a BUNCH of grapes!) and getting assignments done [on time] weekly, everything in 4 months time is one heck of a life.
However, God is... really... really, really... good to preserve my sanity.
Like, serioussssly !
A film editing and an analysis essay have just made it on time for submission. Now running (like running running) off to the film scoring lab to finish another project ! And to redo and tweak the old ones. There's the piano examinations on Wednesday as well ! And show and tell our projects on screen this Friday. We are blind writing on a project (which I think it's cool) and then on Friday, to match our music to the motion picture. It will be funny afternoon!
Will be sleeping over at the lab tonight ! :D For the first time! Monday 6pm to Tuesday 9am.
I can't wait to settle everything ! And off to Florida for a vacation ! :D Miami we're coming !!
11 classes with 16 full credits is no joke. To cramp the learning information (which comes like a BUNCH of grapes!) and getting assignments done [on time] weekly, everything in 4 months time is one heck of a life.
However, God is... really... really, really... good to preserve my sanity.
Like, serioussssly !
A film editing and an analysis essay have just made it on time for submission. Now running (like running running) off to the film scoring lab to finish another project ! And to redo and tweak the old ones. There's the piano examinations on Wednesday as well ! And show and tell our projects on screen this Friday. We are blind writing on a project (which I think it's cool) and then on Friday, to match our music to the motion picture. It will be funny afternoon!
Will be sleeping over at the lab tonight ! :D For the first time! Monday 6pm to Tuesday 9am.
I can't wait to settle everything ! And off to Florida for a vacation ! :D Miami we're coming !!
Friday, December 13, 2013
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Where the Field is the mission
Today is a good day to take time off and write a life's timeline.
Well, at least until it reaches the age of 39.
Sometimes when applying for applications involving somebody giving $$, questions like "Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?" and "What are your dreams" bla bla.
Even if it's not for an application, it is also good to once in awhile think about stuffs and goals, and write them down on a blank paper. Afterward, show God, the boss, and involve Him in it. Gotta' make sure to leave some space for Him to make rooms of better adjustments.
All my heart's desires and dreams are on that piece of paper. They serve as a guideline so that the journey isn't aimless. Dreams and goals were writen down a few time as reminders. But timeline, I feel that it is more like a sturdy plan in long run, like an overview or master plan. One can sometimes get veh caught up with studies and work and other things. PLan all we want, God determines them.
Also, I really admire my friends who's mission field is missionary missionary. As blessings, we all have different callings in different places to touch and heal lives. It also makes sense that our characters, personalities and up bringings tally well with our callings, and that the work that we do, we're good at it and that it comes naturally to us. Before we make any decisions about life career and all, know first our natural abilities and interest in specific. Confirmations do come from God, if we ask. So, there's your mission field. :)
Well, at least until it reaches the age of 39.
Sometimes when applying for applications involving somebody giving $$, questions like "Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?" and "What are your dreams" bla bla.
Even if it's not for an application, it is also good to once in awhile think about stuffs and goals, and write them down on a blank paper. Afterward, show God, the boss, and involve Him in it. Gotta' make sure to leave some space for Him to make rooms of better adjustments.
All my heart's desires and dreams are on that piece of paper. They serve as a guideline so that the journey isn't aimless. Dreams and goals were writen down a few time as reminders. But timeline, I feel that it is more like a sturdy plan in long run, like an overview or master plan. One can sometimes get veh caught up with studies and work and other things. PLan all we want, God determines them.
Also, I really admire my friends who's mission field is missionary missionary. As blessings, we all have different callings in different places to touch and heal lives. It also makes sense that our characters, personalities and up bringings tally well with our callings, and that the work that we do, we're good at it and that it comes naturally to us. Before we make any decisions about life career and all, know first our natural abilities and interest in specific. Confirmations do come from God, if we ask. So, there's your mission field. :)
Friday, December 6, 2013
Better than solving other (like Maths) problems
It is really rewarding to see the goals set earlier for each and every semester, all coming to past. Whatever goals that we have set for in life, whether to learn something or to work for something; when that time frame set has come to an end, boi, that satisfying accomplished feeling which can not be described, or pen down in words right now can inspire one to keep going and be better. It is because there weren't any giving ups during the tough periods. Those are valuable moments to refine a skill, for example, and also to toughen up one's character. When we can't, God can. When we begin to loose hope, (I assure, this happened to me) we can find them in Jesus.
Never been more happy to solve computer problems and orchestration writing. It is for good used very soon. Very very thankful to have made it to berklee and boston. God's plan is guaranteed, much much better than ours. It is challenging for me when it comes to computer writing, however once it has been settled or understood its terms and functions, it is really rewarding. Will definitely put into so much of good use real soon.
This is better than solving AddMaths problem :P
(We also do have some sort of Math-doing as well in computer lessons though! Woooaaat kien I saey... Math is just part of everything)
PS : Thank God for creating Cocoa... chocolate helps in so many ways !! Even if it's for breakfast :D
Never been more happy to solve computer problems and orchestration writing. It is for good used very soon. Very very thankful to have made it to berklee and boston. God's plan is guaranteed, much much better than ours. It is challenging for me when it comes to computer writing, however once it has been settled or understood its terms and functions, it is really rewarding. Will definitely put into so much of good use real soon.
This is better than solving AddMaths problem :P
(We also do have some sort of Math-doing as well in computer lessons though! Woooaaat kien I saey... Math is just part of everything)
PS : Thank God for creating Cocoa... chocolate helps in so many ways !! Even if it's for breakfast :D
Thursday, December 5, 2013
The basic of film scoring
Ugh. The assignments are so technical !
Computer is not my forte.
It's a whole lot of bittersweet memory taking this class.
Zomgosh. It's going to be life changing.
It's my life career !
The basic of film scoring is definitely to learn stuffs about how to operate softwares and writing music using those ( incredibly expensive $$ ) virtual instruments, connecting them from one place to another, tweaking here and there to make them sound as REAL as possible.
In such short amount of time, we are expected to digest informations in class like an expert. The thanksgiving break has really gotten school work and due dates all cramped up. Especially when it comes to technical terms and wiring... I don't even wanna go there.
Ahh !!
Thankful and yet, painful.
Computer is not my forte.
It's a whole lot of bittersweet memory taking this class.
Zomgosh. It's going to be life changing.
It's my life career !
The basic of film scoring is definitely to learn stuffs about how to operate softwares and writing music using those ( incredibly expensive $$ ) virtual instruments, connecting them from one place to another, tweaking here and there to make them sound as REAL as possible.
In such short amount of time, we are expected to digest informations in class like an expert. The thanksgiving break has really gotten school work and due dates all cramped up. Especially when it comes to technical terms and wiring... I don't even wanna go there.
Ahh !!
Thankful and yet, painful.
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Giving Thanks
The word "thankful" can never describe enough really of how thankful, grateful and appreciative I am to the most wonderful One. He who took me by the hand to travel across the great wide oceans, all the way to a cold place called Boston in the United States.
Really? I'm actually living, breathing and surviving here for 6 months alreadyy!
The amount of friends, things and opportunities provided here from God are amazing. It is the quality, less of quantity. He shows me His love day by day through actions, as it is part of the love language I understand. Seeing Him at work- what He has given me, taught me and groomed me is an incredible part/moment of life for me now at this time, that when looking back one day, definitely, will thank Him over and over again. The only thing I'm worried sometimes is the plans that I make, that they might interfere His ones once in a while. And maybe my short-sightedness as well that bothers.
Still feeling fascinated with all the experiences I have here.
Because of the past, I've always dreamt of meeting sincere and warm friends. And here they are :') God saw my tears and answered my prayers! :') Not only that, coming here alone alivee (yes, the exaggeration) without mama and papa and sister and bro is some major life event ever that happened to me, which is the beginning of that something great that I always believe. In due time. My storybook is slowly filling up by the awesome Author. I want to read yours too !
:D
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Berklee is in my heart... and other short stories
Words used to describe to berklee :
Eventful, memorable, stressful, housing lots of talented people, marinating them with lots and lots of information, churning them out into the industry like a freakin' amazing food processor, a place to sharpen skills (more like BOOT CAMP), and mind-blowing.
Yes, MIND BLOWING.
I can't stress enough how AWESOME BERKLEE is ! In the midst of all that is happening, sometimes still in disbelief to think that I'm actually placed here tonight.
Never regretted to obey God from the very beginning. Actually, He was the one who planned things and made things happened so that I can study in this number one music college in the world, according to the Hollywood reporters.
Sometimes I forget that it was God who can, actually make things happened. I get so caught up with tonnes of planning, doing things my own, taking things in my own hand to feel that I've gotten everything under control, everything's perfect, but then things will never always happen the way I wanted it to be. Then when I realized that I don't have anymore control over them, I felt like I'm off the tangent. THat's the downside though. And there needs to be some adjustment in this attitude.
I also feel that I have so much musical knowledge and information with me that I need to sit down and have a moment to process them.
It frustrates sometimes not to have all the answers at a time or at one go.
It's like I know all the cliche answers, like, okaayy, this is the time to trust God, have faith, be faithful with my calling and yada yada.
I also know that this point of time in my life is the most crucial part- the building of daphne's career, friendship, working friends, learning what are my working style, and character development especially the toughening-up-myself part- perseverance, endurance whatever names.
I wish I have all the solutions to these maths equations. I want it to be 1+1=10.
Eventful, memorable, stressful, housing lots of talented people, marinating them with lots and lots of information, churning them out into the industry like a freakin' amazing food processor, a place to sharpen skills (more like BOOT CAMP), and mind-blowing.
Yes, MIND BLOWING.
I can't stress enough how AWESOME BERKLEE is ! In the midst of all that is happening, sometimes still in disbelief to think that I'm actually placed here tonight.
Never regretted to obey God from the very beginning. Actually, He was the one who planned things and made things happened so that I can study in this number one music college in the world, according to the Hollywood reporters.
Sometimes I forget that it was God who can, actually make things happened. I get so caught up with tonnes of planning, doing things my own, taking things in my own hand to feel that I've gotten everything under control, everything's perfect, but then things will never always happen the way I wanted it to be. Then when I realized that I don't have anymore control over them, I felt like I'm off the tangent. THat's the downside though. And there needs to be some adjustment in this attitude.
I also feel that I have so much musical knowledge and information with me that I need to sit down and have a moment to process them.
It frustrates sometimes not to have all the answers at a time or at one go.
It's like I know all the cliche answers, like, okaayy, this is the time to trust God, have faith, be faithful with my calling and yada yada.
I also know that this point of time in my life is the most crucial part- the building of daphne's career, friendship, working friends, learning what are my working style, and character development especially the toughening-up-myself part- perseverance, endurance whatever names.
I wish I have all the solutions to these maths equations. I want it to be 1+1=10.
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Need that one day
There are times when thoughts like "What the heck am I doing here?" come running into my mind.
Seeing some profiles of my accomplished film scoring friends has made me think about what am I going to do with my own journey, the rest of my time in Berklee, and to start planning ahead what's after Berklee.
By God's grace, I will get there- to the place I should be going.
There're so many things I wanna' do in life.
In Berklee, during my summer break and after graduation.
I don't really know what I want yet, but I really know what I don't want.
There're really, so many things I wanna' do in life.
One thing I really know right now, is that I'm happy with film music.
Whenever I listen to any film music, a part of me breaks away and suddenly I realize that I'm totally immersed with the sound and mood of it.
But the process of writing, creating film music and being one of the bests in the market is tough, especially for women to break into the industry dominated by many talented men. The competition is high, just like in any other field and business. It's a giant.
Holiday is coming. Looking forward for the thanksgiving holiday. Not to relax and do nothing. But to chill with God, seek Him, and talk to Him about life. I just need that one day. Who else can understand me better, except for my Creator, regarding all my fears, worries, doubts, and lots of other personal stuffs.
I need that day. This semester has been a hell lot of work, I barely have time to process my thoughts properly, digest informations from classes and immerse myself with film music.
Where did all my time go? It went into getting assignments done. And to distress, I cook.
In two months time, I'll be 21.
Like, entering into the (young) adult zone of real life working world, meeting up with real clients, directors and a whole new bunch of people- both good and sneaky. The pressure would be much much much higher, because we get paid to do something- and that work must be of quality ones.
Time to plan- in dept, in detail. And to listen more carefully about my directions from God.
Seeing some profiles of my accomplished film scoring friends has made me think about what am I going to do with my own journey, the rest of my time in Berklee, and to start planning ahead what's after Berklee.
By God's grace, I will get there- to the place I should be going.
There're so many things I wanna' do in life.
In Berklee, during my summer break and after graduation.
I don't really know what I want yet, but I really know what I don't want.
There're really, so many things I wanna' do in life.
One thing I really know right now, is that I'm happy with film music.
Whenever I listen to any film music, a part of me breaks away and suddenly I realize that I'm totally immersed with the sound and mood of it.
But the process of writing, creating film music and being one of the bests in the market is tough, especially for women to break into the industry dominated by many talented men. The competition is high, just like in any other field and business. It's a giant.
Holiday is coming. Looking forward for the thanksgiving holiday. Not to relax and do nothing. But to chill with God, seek Him, and talk to Him about life. I just need that one day. Who else can understand me better, except for my Creator, regarding all my fears, worries, doubts, and lots of other personal stuffs.
I need that day. This semester has been a hell lot of work, I barely have time to process my thoughts properly, digest informations from classes and immerse myself with film music.
Where did all my time go? It went into getting assignments done. And to distress, I cook.
In two months time, I'll be 21.
Like, entering into the (young) adult zone of real life working world, meeting up with real clients, directors and a whole new bunch of people- both good and sneaky. The pressure would be much much much higher, because we get paid to do something- and that work must be of quality ones.
Time to plan- in dept, in detail. And to listen more carefully about my directions from God.
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Tis the season... Soon !
When lecturer starts giving out Christmasy songs, we know tis' the season to be jolly !
:D
Yays !
Glad that I took this class. So much of learning and grooving.
Thursday, October 31, 2013
At the very last minute
Film music just makes me so happy !
But my composition teacher banned us from listening too much :/
And start listening to orchestral music.
Erm. Nope. I'm still listening to it. Cuz. I. LIKE it! :D
Film music also has a higher fluctuation of mood though in its music, in that 2-3 minutes of music.
PS : I made it ! I completed the two giant assignments in less than 24 hours! Never... no more... doing last minute. Psschk, yeah, that was what I said the last 7 times.
Yeah, it was several painful experiencess of sweating so hard and to finally hand in my work 5 minutes or even 2 minutes before the digital deadline inside the berklee website starts to tick off in red.
Not sure if this is a good training for me.
:D
But my composition teacher banned us from listening too much :/
And start listening to orchestral music.
Erm. Nope. I'm still listening to it. Cuz. I. LIKE it! :D
Film music also has a higher fluctuation of mood though in its music, in that 2-3 minutes of music.
PS : I made it ! I completed the two giant assignments in less than 24 hours! Never... no more... doing last minute. Psschk, yeah, that was what I said the last 7 times.
Yeah, it was several painful experiencess of sweating so hard and to finally hand in my work 5 minutes or even 2 minutes before the digital deadline inside the berklee website starts to tick off in red.
Not sure if this is a good training for me.
:D
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Can I ?
Layers after layers. Just like a puffy ball- under these wools, sweaters and Long John.
Tonight, I wished I'm back in KL.
Missing driving my car, missing wearing shorts, missing Mamak, the weather, and the smell of the noodle soup from hawker centre (mihun !!).
Now, I'm stuck with writing a screenplay (WHATT why did I sign up for this subject?!) and having a string orchestra to compose that is due tomorrow. BOTH ARE !! And to create a sequence and mp3 for my composition !!
Oh my dearest.
Why did I leave them a day before the due date?
Writer's block and composer's block going on at the same time. Wait, whyy?
How to pluck ideas from thin air?
To write a screenplay 6 pages long with such small font-- of 12?
Cwrap lah.
And a minimum of 2-minutes long of orchestra with a solo instrument.
Without sounding CHEESY !
Daphne daphne. DAPHNE !!
Wondering what does writing a screen play has got to do with film scoring ? I don't know! Maybe! But I don't see the point right now!
Ahhhh !! I will make it for tomorrow ! By hook or by crook.
Dear God. Hear my prayers.
Tonight, I wished I'm back in KL.
Missing driving my car, missing wearing shorts, missing Mamak, the weather, and the smell of the noodle soup from hawker centre (mihun !!).
Now, I'm stuck with writing a screenplay (WHATT why did I sign up for this subject?!) and having a string orchestra to compose that is due tomorrow. BOTH ARE !! And to create a sequence and mp3 for my composition !!
Oh my dearest.
Why did I leave them a day before the due date?
Writer's block and composer's block going on at the same time. Wait, whyy?
How to pluck ideas from thin air?
To write a screenplay 6 pages long with such small font-- of 12?
Cwrap lah.
And a minimum of 2-minutes long of orchestra with a solo instrument.
Without sounding CHEESY !
Daphne daphne. DAPHNE !!
Wondering what does writing a screen play has got to do with film scoring ? I don't know! Maybe! But I don't see the point right now!
Ahhhh !! I will make it for tomorrow ! By hook or by crook.
Dear God. Hear my prayers.
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