We all know this

I always wanted to stay in Singapore.

Love the organised city, cleanliness, education system and the shopping.

If I work there, it'll be worth it to spend on the shopping.

And to think that my kids will have a better educational system. (I'm just planning for a long term thingy heh)

But, once a Malaysian, always a Malaysian.

Even if I get to change my nationality to another country.

So I've decided on something that I thought about yesterday.

Instead of complaining and whining about Malaysia how... (u know), why not start praying, together with a bunch of youths/youngsters who shares the same fervent heart and vision, to see a change-for-the-better result in Malaysia? Where we were all born and grew up as Malaysians, go/going/gone thru whatever that happens in our country, who know what's really going on in our country.

'The Lord is far from the wicked, but he hears the prayer of the righteous.' Proverbs 15:29

'...The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.' James 16:5

Yes, the grass is greener in the overseas, we all know this. but what will happen to OUR MALAYSIA if people like us one by one move out of this country?

Don't we all love the food here? The excellent climate? The natural resources? The 'Malaysia-lah' language? There are some more rooms for improvement waiting for us to carry out.

Minggu Doa is coming up, in Kluang. I've decided to start interceding for my home ground.

Don't want to miss the great doings (be it preparations or battling time) of His.

Surely, it's gonna be something!

While cooking together in the kitchen...

Today, I've just discovered that Mommy cooks (self taught some more) because she loves food.

And to think that I'm a miniature of Mommy in certain ways (quite a lot of ways actually) is pretty interesting tho'.

***

She was cutting pineapples, telling me that she dislikes cutting pineapples because of the nuisance cutting off its eyes... EYES??!

As I stare at it longer, I feel creepy about its eyes...

As if it's watching me.

My imagination was so disturbing that I hope I wouldn't dream of it tonight!

:O

Old photos and some videos

Old photos. It cracks my day up.

:D

and now...

A MUST WATCH VIDEO

of the

2009

production!

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=140360957478&set=t.678145649&type=3

and ANOTHER VIDEO TO WATCH

also a 2009 production

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=117918859866&set=t.678665251&type=3&theater

:D

Food fanatic

I can't wait for Mommy to come home tomorrow! (Btw, Mom is away for a mission trip in Maesot)

When she's back, I want to help her in the kitchen again :D

Okie so, why the sudden passion in cooking?

• I want to be able to cook and eat healthy YET delicious food
• I'm a foodie, so I want to cook what I like and what I think it's appetizing/nice to eat
• After watching Junior Masterchef Australia. Oh man, I seriously needa cook!
• For future prep, as a wife and mother who knows how to cook. Not just making music.
• I also love to present my friends some freshly baked pretty cookies, tarts, cupcakes etc. and everyone gets to eat and that makes me happy :D
• I prefer home cooked meals

Starting from tomorrow, I've made up my mind to cook as much as I can, and bake pretty tarts, pies, cupcakes and cakes at least a few times in a month.

I'm gonna head down to MPH again and buy some really interesting baking books that I've found today. Hopefully, mom can come along with me ahhh I think I'll make her come hee! *winks

***

Today, it was really fascinating for me to see the way the Cooks cooked at the 'tai chow' restaurant just now. Seeing how they handled the kuali skillfully was just intriguing.

***

I also loveeee the feeling of the hot steam coming out from the oven, pots and pans.

And that super awesome feeling of getting my hands 'dirty' in cooking. I like!

But I dislike having cut fingers from the knives, coz I won't be able to hit the keys on the piano :(

What if I love cooking more than my music? @.@

Food fanatic.

I still love my music tho'

:)

PS : It's been quite some time that I recognize this cooking desire in me. It's not a one day feeling thingy, no worries :)

Wow little chefs!

S1's Australia's Junior Masterchef is...

Isabella! 97/100

Amazing! Mesmerizing!

:D

Jack was reeeeally awesome too! 94/100

I think the both of them are really good chefs!

They didn't get jealous of each other or mad or upset about themselves. Really humble people. I like!

I prefer watching the Junior Masterchef programme more than the adults ones.

Season 2 is getting more exciting :D

Junior Cooks

I was watching Junior Masterchef Australia (S1). Pierre was chosen as the Red head captain and he was given an opportunity to choose the Blue head captain. And so he chose Anthony.

When asked by the judges why Pierre chose Anthony, all he said was :

"It's because Anthony is my good friend and he is a good cook,"

Anthony : "Bring it on!"

Pierre : "I thought you're my friend..."

Kids :) Anthony's a little cheeky.

They are a bunch of exciting kids only aged 8-12, who love to cook.

Competitive and adorable!

Should check out the stuffs that they cook!

One of the kids just said this :

"Can you not put too much stress on me??"

LOL.

Small people, big flavours.

My Sistah

Some recycled photos of us.

People said we don't look alike.

Really?

I think it's kinda cool when we hang out together as sisters

And they think we're more like two good friends.

:D

2007 Christmas Caroling

Our best friend in the middle.

Talkative little birds.

Man, with Angel around, the three of us can talk talk talkt altkaltkatal non-stop!

Crap about almost everything.

:D

She looks a lot like my mom but possesses the attitude of my dad;

mine's the other way round.

Derrick is just in between both mom and dad :)

Soaking wet hair at Apeh Waterfall.

Until now, we still laugh over the name of it hee!

On the left: Our best friend :D

Sunburned and I looked really retarded here #.#

It's cool to know that Esther is my best friend/sister.

For my best friend, I would :

Wake up at 7am to drop her off for work;

Stay up late to hear all her story-of-the-day;

Be honest with all my opinions;

Laugh at all her embarrassing moments;

Crap with her anything under the sun;

Drive her nuts when either one of us are bored;

Fetch her up and down like nobody's business because she just got her driving licence;

... etc.

Aiyah kenot pen down everything here.

She always laughs at me when I talk to the traffic and cars that just cut me without signaling. She thinks it's funny.

That was before she knows how to drive.

But now that she knows how to drive, she talks to the traffic too!

Okie, yes I know I kept using the word 'best friend', it's because I have a lot of 'best friend' .

Teehee!

The Remnants

There are some more remnants that I still need to forgive.

I'll know it, that when I have completely forgiven you[s], is that when I stop tearing whenever I think about it.

Note : This is not a dark emo post. I'm far from that.

Non matching piece

Okay, first, I can't decide on which picture it is that is almost similar to what I had in mind. If only the first one could turn to his right like the second one, and a little more red and green on his shirt, then that should be able to fit what my description is. Moreover, it should be most likely in a jigsaw puzzle mode ;) I just love both.

***

I guess one of the pieces wouldn't fit in the jigsaw puzzle, it just wouldn't fit it :( I rationalize with Him almost everyday.

If it doesn't fit, somehow or later I need to swallow the fact and stop denying it.

***

Don't know why it was a picture of a man running in the American football game. Was it a kind of race/competition in life? I just know that the puzzles are the Parts of His plans.

If it doesn't match, and we know it, well it just doesn't! :/

Ohhh the agony of the painful fact, yet it's a loving plan of His.

Wow to these Berklee's Presidential Scholars

http://www.berklee.edu/scholarships/presidential/

So inspiring! I meant their testimonies.

Berklee's Presidential Scholars. They're a bunch of good talented and humble people. Some don't even play jazz and yet they hold THE presendential scholarship. They are just being themselves, playing what they like, and loving music with their whole heart. Some are even just Sem 1 students. Wow! Right!

They play because they love music, not so much on impressing other musicians. I like that. And I have one friend of mine that reminded me days ago, saying, "Music is an expression".

Feel so motivated right now to love what I'm doing right now, my piano and the stuffs that I'm learning as a musician even more after watching the short clips :)

I think I've watched all 28 videos of them.

Just inspiring.

:')

Me, Derrick and... Salmon!

We decided to sit down and chit chat about food, cartoons, music, our studies, cats who've just came into our house, etc. anything under the sun! And then, we reached the part where I was just joking, wondering why did the sneaky cat sneak into our house. Was it because of mom's Baked Salmon with Basil on the table? That was our dinner and I forgotten to snap a picture of it ehehe :P It was reeeeally good tho!

Then I made a bet with him. The "L" must buy the winner an ice cream.

"Salmon are orange!"

And he went :

"Noh! Green head and red body!"

(AHAHAHA yea rite! He must be joking watching too much of cartoons)

We actually google them up and...

But I still insist them to be orange!

And then he was moving the mouse swiftly on the google photos

"nah nah nah NAHHH!"

Green head, red body fishes.

Shucks. A 10-year-old kiddo telling me that he watched National Geography and yes, these are how salmon look like.

Okie, he didn't win because I told him that I was describing the inside of a salmon and his was the outside ones.

Eheh!

:P

What's on my mind?

RESULTS are out.

All in all, I'm moving on to the next sem.

I could have done better.

But, thank God for what I have :)

Really.

Okie, time to get down to BUSINESS.

I'm gonna draw a plan on HOW TO PRACTICE.

Ehehe, the word "plan" sounds good to me.

I'll start with a PLAN first.

I hope the results/outcome will be good.

I understand that it takes time and sweat and tears and effort in this process,

AND prayers to see me thru' it, get ideas from God about my planning and the way to carry it out.

Okie, it's already a year of studying music.

No point turning back and looking back at the other road signs that say "DENTIST" and "PEDIATRICIAN".

Gota' get my head in this "league" I'm in.

Gota' give my VERY BEST in this music line I'm in right now!

High time to think like a musician, practice like a musician, and enjoy music like a musician!

Sleep like a musician?? err, no thanks! :)

I'll still sleep before 12.30am and wake up around 9am.

It's almost 12am so... Good night!

:D

Food that made me happy today

These dishes...! Made my day!

1. Papaya Mango Thai salad with lemon dressing as appetizer

(The pan fried peanut was the BOM! The topping I meant :P)

2. Roasted "burned" chicken :P Left in the oven while we went out for grocery shopping.

Tsk tsk tsk, never again will we make the same mistake.

It was so dry but... okie, edible I would say nyeheh!

To compensate the chicken, 3. Steaming hot Ikan Asam was tangy and appetizing.

Everyone was super quiet *nom nom nom*

The word that kept coming out was: YUM!

Okie, I always talk about food cooked by my mom and dad so nah, here they are. This is what we eat :D Maybe I should start taking pictures of their cooking so that I'll have some ideas later in the US when I look back at my blog :P

Man! So much to learn about cooking :D It was fun helping them out. Just that, the not so fun part was me doing the dishes alone @.@ Esther has started working so it's still me washing the pots and pans and kuali and plates and cups etc. alone. It's okay, I have my...

super effective HAND CREAM teeheehee!

"Made out of 100% extra virgin olive oil"

...

Tadaa!

I like!

:D

Little Dream in Me

I have this dream in me.

To open a music school with my friends.

To teach children and learners who want to have some fun in music.

To write many songs that inspire and encourage people from various places.

Since I enjoy cooking and baking too, I shall set up a little cafeteria in our music school.

Where all the locals can stop by for some hot cakes and buns, and enjoy sipping a cup of hot Chinese tea.

And perhaps, they can be comfortable with the whole settings while waiting for whoever's lesson to finish.

Teach and encourage, but slow to get enraged.

Sometimes I'm abit afraid of this dream. Will I ever be able to get there? To get what I desire? What if my dream changes with time? Will I still persevere?

This is my present little dream that I carry and put it in my pocket, wherever I go :)

Don't talk about it (Really?)

Someone once told me this :

"By not talking about that something will help you to forget about it."

Really??

I wanna' try then!

The work of Your hand

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Jesus, open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Yes, please.

Today's Monday

So I brought Derrick and his friends to watch Puss In Boots 3D today.

Below: Joshua, Joel, Stone, Tze Rui and Bro.

:)

Stone will be leaving to the US soon, like forever. So they decided to spend some time with their dear friend.

Super hyperactive kids I must say.

*Wrestling

*Boxing

*Pulling

*Pushing

*Dragging

Boys will always be boys... Hehe

While waiting for the movie to start, we went to ToysRUs and everyone got an ice-cream each.

And then more of those * thingy they did again.

We're all still in one piece :D

Well, at least I think I am.

After waking up at 7.45am to fetch Esther to work, packed home breakfast for everyone at home, did the laundry, did the dishes, fetched bro and dad for a quick lunch, fetched Derrick and friends for movie, fetched daddy for his dressing, and... finally... fetched myself to dinner at 9.25pm!

Whoa, I'm still intact, unbelievable.

And yes, there were some embarrassing moments of mine because I was panicked.

Talking about head counting the boys? It ain't an easy job. I always stop at FOUR, WHERE'S THE OTHER ONE?

Nyeheh.

We're good ;)

Not leaving you alone!

It was all God's protection :)

Thank You God for always keeping us safe from all serious injuries and accidents.

We didn't know this would happen. Anything could have happened at anytime. It happened all too sudden. My heart cracked seeing blood oozing out from his head.

But I'm really thankful for His sovereign protection over us.

What a day, yesterday.

Miraculously, his right eye wasn't affected by the shattered glass. Just, traumatized.

Really, it was all God's protection.

Everyone tried to remain calm in the car, and we just kept praying that nothing serious had happened.

Next time, we're not leaving each other behind, alone, anywhere.

I'm fetching him for his dressing later.

And taking five boys with me along for a movie in the nearest mall. Big responsibility! @.@ But I trust that it'll be fun, being the big che che :)

:)

Need not say more :)

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight

Someone thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone saying a prayer

That we'll find one another, then we'll meet somewhere out there :)

And even though I know how very far apart we are

It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night will start to sing a lonesome lullaby

It helps to think we're sleeping underneath that same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through

Then we'll be together somewhere out there

Out where dreams come through

:)

The heart of a single simply humming to this song.

Something to write

It's so hard to breathe! Yes, my nose is stuck.

And I never like the feeling of it.

After entering cinema 8 in MidValley watching Real Steel (OMGOSH it was terrific! :D), I had this irritation going on. Dust irritation, really, not some germs infection or what.

I really lurve watching movies with children involved, but DEFINITELY not horror ones. There's no point watching those and get scared for nothing :S

Also, I sent my dear friend, Joyee off today. She'll be away in the US til' next year, and I'll be seeing her only when the next sem starts. We ate, we watched a movie, we bought some stuffs, we talked so many random things, anything under the sun. It's almost a year we knew each other, seems like we've just met yesterday :)

Then while waiting for Esther after work, I spent a good 1 hour in MPH, flipping thru'... COOK BOOKS! I tell you, it was satisfying seeing the pictures hahaha :P And then I went to the music section to check out some song books for song ideas to play for gigs, there was this trio of men. I guess the son is taking up music and they were looking up for some guitar improvisation books.

Son: "Adoi, s'mua Inggeris lah ku tak gitu faham, macam mana ni?"

Father: "Takpe, beli je. Engkau tak faham boleh belilah KAMUS!"

Another guy: "HAHAHA! Dah susah-susah blajar s'mua buku Inggeris ni masih nak blajar KAMUS!"

It was just an entertaining conversation me and Esther overheard and she nearly burst into laughter :D

Card game

I remember those days of playing Uno cards with my siblings and sometimes with some friends in school. WAIT! We are good students ;) We play cards only AFTER exams okie ehehe, and of course without the teacher's knowledge that we brought cards to class, and tell u, we were so pro in hiding the cards *smirks!

Come to think about it, I realized that I always hold my cards tightly and was very protective towards every cards. Like, I have different tactics to cover my cards and safeguard them so that others can't take a peep.

Well, today I felt that I need to surrender the cards of my life to Him, like really trusting Him to play the game. And those cards that I'm holding and safeguarding so tightly are my hopes, dreams, desires, relationships, ministry, fears, worries, character building yada yada etc. I have limited sight, and ONLY God knows what are the next step(s) to take, how to do it and what should I do.

If I continue to play my "Uno" game alone, thinking that I've got it all, and crack my head for the next move(s), I'll never make it.

It's so hard for me to trust someone, maybe because of the hurts and disappointment that I'm afraid of. Anyhow, this game requires some learning to trust, and it's ONLY in Him.

Try

Trying too hard on something shows that we do not allow Him to intervene in our situation. It's more like we're using our own strength to achieve something.

But, 'trying our best' and 'trying too hard' are two different things eh...

For when you have given your best, leave the rest in God's hand. In other words, do your best and let God do the rest. (Much too familiar phrase that sometimes we just let it pass thru)

Hmm.

Okie.

This morning

My new cajones arrived this morning! :D And it's in purple, unexpectedly :) Smells new, handmade by Esther's friend.

Purple Timoz :D

Okie, I'm so gonna create a small music corner soon! For the fun of it hee. And ahh, I kenot wait for my tomorrow's last-exam-of-the-year (practical) to end. And then I'm gonna clear my room and give it a new a paint and and do stuffs that I like this holiday! Read like I've never read before, cook and bake like I've never done before, Christmas shopping, watch some gigs with friends, and others which I can't think of right now.

"In your heart you plan your life. But the Lord decided where your steps will take you." Proverbs 16:9

I love to plan, I can plan all I want for my life, but not all the time planning is required. Sometimes, I just need to let loose a little and go with the flow yo.

And...

Not.to.FREEZE when I don't have a plan with me @.@

I gota glue my butt back to the piano chair now. Wait, I'm hungry for lunch nyahahaha :D

New toys

It was aweeeesome! The new Korg Kronos *slurps!

It was fun unwrapping it with Esther and Derrick, at least I got to 'gila' awhile with someone who was as excited as me :D

So many things happened at that moment- a few of us got electric shocked, a tiny insect went in in one of the F keys, figuring out how to plug in the weird plug etc.

After all the hoohaas, it finally functioned like a healthy keyboard, except for the occasional electric shocks. I haven't got the chance to really touch and play it coz' the two jokers and dad are so excited (me too!), busy trying out the effects. Mom was busy baking for tomorrow's function, but she came over for a few times to join in the hoohaas :D

I'm gonna spend some quality time with my new toy. I'm gonna get to know you inside out and make sure that I don't underuse you! :) This keyboard is also dedicated to the church :) and we laid hands and prayed for its service and the people who are going to play the Kronos. Sleeping late but not too late, church tomorrow!

Ooh, I got myself a new digital metronome because the earphones for my old digital ones spoilt, and some brand new headphones.

Heaaaapee giler!

Tough lah!

I felt like I have the resources, but I just don't know how to make full use of them.

All I just have is the five stones, enough to defeat the 'giant', but, how do I do it? (The David-Goliath story)

This, I don't know.

Dad said : " Only the things you can't do, God can do, cos' God will do the impossible. We can live supernaturally because we are the children of God. When you're weak, God is strong. If you can do it, then there's no need for God to help, and it becomes limited like you boxed God up in your small space,"

Okay, even if I don't get what I need, God will provide in another way. For now, I'll just do my best and let Him do the rest, just like how He always does. Looking back, God was always with me when I gave my best in something, He made them into something even better.

December will be a good time for me to discover what are my strengths and weak points, and brush up my techniques, and transcribe some songs- for a start, Bill Evans. I even plan to go for a trip for some inspirations to write some songs. I missed writing them.

Eeeeeeeek!

Life is a beautiful song that God is teaching us to play (today's Our Daily Bread).

:)

Jotta A.-Agnus Dei

I just got to post this!

Words used

A fact that I've just discovered about myself : I actually kinda enjoy writing!

I remember when I was 4-5 years old, dad bought me some exercise writing books with pictures and activities in them for me as a birthday gift, and that was I think the utmost best-appreciated birthday present ever for me! A weirdo kiddo who actually loves her books more than her toys.

These days, it's almost so hard to identify friends who still write the details and account of interesting happenings of their lives, using descriptive and proper words and language. I would lurve to read them.

Most of the times, when vulgarity are being expressed by someone I read somewhere really put me off. There are like a zillion other better words to use to describe what we're thinking and feeling rather than using the same plain lame cheap and crude words.

I guess it's good to be reminded of making sure that our words are encouraging and is able to build each other up. But in some cases, actions do speak louder than words.

PS: I still think that guys who can write well and still read these days are intelligent and impressive (to me :D). They are rare, but I'm sure they are somewhere.

Ambassador of Jesus

We don't compromise with the world's standard. We live with God's standard. As a faithful Christian, we must have an obedient heart, a heart that is able to discern what God's desires are, His calling and purpose for us to walk on this fallen Earth. It's not about us giving in to the world and please men.

We are created in His image. As ambassadors of Christ Jesus, our responsibility is to reflect Jesus in our lives, what we do, feel, think, say and act to people around us. Yes, we're not made perfect, but we can always ask Him for wisdom and guidance on how to do this and that.

Walking daily with Him is a must. We all have 24hours to manage. The more we relate and connect with Him, the more we'll be like Him, see things like Him, share the same passion and desires with Him.

It's never too late to repent if we've fallen out of His path. Our God is sovereign. His mercies are new every morning. Our God is a loving God.

:)

Choices

I'm flooded with decision-making everyday. We all do. So many choices to make in one day.

I need You Lord, Your wisdom to guide me in choosing the right options, to select what is right and good.

:/

Sam's Big Day

First thing first : Blog changed its blogging colour to blue, kinda 'arglee'.

Anyway, here are some photos taken on Sam's wedding hee.

It.was.lovely! It.was.fairytale.like!

PJ Gospel Centre

My sister (by the score stand) led the bride and daddy in by singing.

Solo hohoho!

Kids presentation :)

(above) and the sweet and radiant couple :)

Below are friends from Mentakab, we went to Sunday school together.

Mom's ex-colleague. Formerly a discipline teacher.

So.be.nice!

Heh heh

Centre is Cassie :) the bride's sister.

Shoo pweety

Okie this is the Passion Road. Beautiful place for an afternoon reception.

And I really liked the whole table musical theme (my group was Michael Learns To Rock haha)

with little handmade red baskets for everyone as souvenirs.

Love the details!

AND there were sweets corner for kids! Yeah, for KIDS :D

Those sweets where I grew up eating lots of them.

I went 'awwh!' over them for like 3 minutes.

Old time Candies teeheehee!

Apollo now has 3 sticks in it instead of four in those days.

Whaaaat?! Cheating!

And the red bear bubblegum had tattoos last time, it made me look cool B-)

But now it's just a blank wrapper.

One of my Sunday school teachers I met.

<3

Mom's ex-colleague with her all-grown-up-already daughter.

Sweet :)

Ahah! Beside me is Grace. All I remember was : In camp, I was so shy to make friends but then somehow we became friends and she lent me all her G2 Pilot coloured pens to write down Bible verses and notes.

Back then, Pilot pens are like THE most awesome pen to have.

Heh.

:D

Sis, Sam (in red) and me.

Really happy for her to have finally found her The One :)

I like how she was just being herself on her Big Day.

She's always looking naturally beautiful every time I see her.

And the final photo session :D

All in all, the wedding was fantabulous and everyone had a greeeat time together.