When we pray

Be honest with Him.

Be real.

We do not need to put on masks when we come to Him.

He already knew what's going on in our hearts and our minds.

No matter how much we screwed things up, He isn't sick with our attitude as long as we come back to Him.

Look at David. He's a good example.

It isn't about what we can do for Him, or impressing Him with our strengths. He is drawn to us by our weaknesses and would gladly walk with us to overcome the storms in whatever state of life we're in.

Give Him the real us when we pray.

I like this line used by Dan Macaulay : (When you're troubled or distress) Run TO Him and not FROM Him.

:)

Just a thought

Good looking with good brains and a God-fearing man is either being taken, or he is just one in a million.

At times like this, waiting for the Best to come, it requires patience, guarding of heart and, trust especially in God to say "Here is the one, that I've created, just for you!"

I know I know... It's a debating topic of what I've just wrote in the first few lines. But hey, it's just a thought of mine. There's no right or wrong in stuffs like this. For all you readers out there, this is just a THOUGHT, not a CONCLUSION or AFFIRMATION okie :)

Anyway, here's an old song that I always hum to myself whenever I think about relationships and God who writes my love story :)

PS: I think I've posted the same song years ago in one of the blogposts. Baaaaah, whatever, it's nice and related to me so I'm re-posting it :D Heehee!

A Family Joke

For all who understands Hokkien, check out the name of the restaurant.

Found it along some street in Kuantan, and it became our family joke.

The owner of this restaurant is definitely NOT a Hokkien.

LOL!

:P

There is no perfect father (Thailand)

While doing our own things in one of the practice rooms today, Christine, out of a sudden asked me and Joyee to watch a video. It then made us both cried :( :( sheesh, why Christine why! We were practicing, playing games, resting etc. and you had to make us cry in that 3.04 minutes video clip gahaha :)



Cheers to Thai Life Insurance. It reminded me of Malaysia's Petronas company who also always comes out with meaningful video clips ;)

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I.am.so.hungree.and.tired.

I.need.to.get.myself.a.white.dress.soon.for.upcoming.weddings.

I.have.to.do.my.projects.

I.think.I'm.gonna.eat.bathe.then.sleep.

Urgh.I.dislike.reaching.home.late.after.school.

Look.at.the.time.now.

Baaaaah.

Grateful

I really thank God for all that has happened.

Thank You for opening my eyes to see things clearer.

I'm really glad that You have directed and guided me all the way to where I am right now.

I'm half way thru'. And

the journey has started, lets continue to travel! :)

Teehee!

I could sing of Your love, forever!

My everything

Everything will be fine.

Grey skies will roll away.

The sun will come out again.

Everything will be fine.

Coz You're my everything :)

From my heart

Dear Lord Jesus,

Take me to a deeper level of spiritual maturity : in all that I do, feel, think, say and act. May Your wisdom and favour be with me.

Take me to a deeper level of prayer too: to pray for Your purpose to come true in me, to pray for my family and each other's ministry, to exercise Your gifting and talents, to pray for my people and nations of Malaysia, to fall on my knees, be still and give You my heart, to pray that I'll continue to guard my heart until You bring the right one to me, he who also has a sincere heart for You.

Teach and train me, to be a godly woman after Your heart. And all the ups and downs of life, I'll learn how to be a tougher person, become the person and character You wanted me to be, that pleases You. And to live a distinct life that reflects You living in me, not to conform and tolerate with the world (this is one of the hardest trainings).

I believe that You won't discard me even if I made mistakes, because of Your abundant Grace. I'll not limit You and boxed You up in little space anymore. You are able :)

All this, I trust in Your unfailing Love.

I'll fix my eyes on You, only You :)

One and only sincerely,

Daphne

Can I travel

I want to travel.

To somewhere far,

To somewhere I've never been before,

To somewhere where I can just observe people and their loved ones, doing things together,

To somewhere where I can take a walk in my summer dress with the cool wind, blowing and caressing my cheeks,

To somewhere where I can just enjoy God's creations,

and

To somewhere away from the internet and TV and keep out of touch with the world,

But to just sit and spend time praying with my precious Saviour.

Knowing that in His time, He makes all things beautiful.

*No money to travel lah, have to work while studying then. Aiks :P

I'll get there...

With His help.

Floating in the middle of the sea, alone, I was so afraid of all the unknowns surrounding me (creepy crawling sea creatures and sharks), especially the ones I cannot see under my two bare feet. All by myself in the deep sea, BUT I know, I just know that Someone is watching over me. What lies ahead of me was a shore. On the shore, there were trees, a village and ONLY ONE tall gigantic mountain!

I keep getting pictures of how He would take really delicate and good care of me, because I know I'm on my training lessons, and God is my Trainer. This (training), I'm aware of and so are His promises and assurances. Once He made His promises, oh yes, you betcha' He'll keep them well.

This is the closest picture I could get from Google. Almost EXACTLY from my vision, except that I had a closer view.

The one and only tall gigantic mountain island :

It is scary, but I'll get there :) Just hanging on.

*Holds breath*

Week-end

WE survivied!

The WEE siblings survived a week without their parents ;)

And everyone's coming back home today heh. Everything's gonna be alright.

No more grumpy days.

No more 'who's gonna cook? Who's gonna do the dishes? Who's gonna settle the clothing? Who's gonna send Derrick for tuition (That'll be definitely me ehehe :P) ?? '

This means, we'll have more prayer time too :) I missed it.

One coming back from Thailand, another from Ipoh just arrived, the other just got back from PD.

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Yesterday, I couldn't sleep well. I was in my dream, driving.

It was totally weird. Sitting in the car, tapping on the Jamie Cullum's song rhythm and always had emergency breaks because I lost focus on the road.

I guess it was because of the colourful spider I encountered 2-3 days ago on my side window (this was in reality), I got scared, wound down my window, blew the spider out, and then had emergency break that I almost hit the expensive car in front of me. Pfft.

Dream driving is totally not cool at all. It kills your sleep, and makes you nervous.

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I hate this feeling.

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Sorry, no potatoes picture today. We did wrap wrap.

Guess I'll just start my assignments right now.

Might not blog these days.

Mommy baked again!

I reached home around 4.13pm today. The sound of the mixer (flour and butter) delighted my heart.

"Mom's baking again!" I whispered to myself with a smile.

Walnut raisins pandan cupcake. Best in the world! Soft and fluffy, crisp in the outer layer.

I know I've been uploading cupcakes like a zillion times, heh heh, but it gets better everytime ;)

The joker (Derrick) dislikes walnut inside his cupcake, mom removed it for him.

See first cupcake.

:D

And the absolute fantabulous fresh mushroom soup! Hot and creamy. If you think Pizza Hut's mushroom soup is good, think again. It's not even in my list of food. Yes, my family is really picky when comes to food. I bet if grandfather is still here with us, he'll definitely be over the moon when he tastes THIS- home made by his daughter. :)

Tomorrow, we'll be doing potatoes.

I'll take a picture of it when it's ready ;)

It's a family thing- we just enjoy being picky, cooking, baking and eating fresh good food.

*Flashes teeth

This is the second batch- with some bits of cranberry in it :)

It's for her friend.

Shy no more!

My lecturer said I kenot be shy shy anymore.

Musicianship is important.

I kenot be shy shy anymore.

Musicians are supposed to be expressive. Yes, I'm in a music school.

Hehe, it took me quite awhile to realize this fact.

*Slow mo.

Receiving week

So much to say, but hmm... really, I don't know where to start.

All I know is that God is preparing me and my family to do something, something I would have never imagined. And He'll walk with me, even though I do not know where I'm at/going. Therefore, clinging on to Him is important. And He's going to raise leaders to disciple the young people for great work to be done in Malaysia.

No more short-sightedness, no more cooping in my shell. It's time. I'm pretty sure of what I'm suppose to do now. But need to spend some more time in prayers for confirmation.

All in all, it has been a good week. Been receiving warnings and visions which I won't write them down here.

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I miss my daddy and I can't wait to tell him all that is happening. Be safe in MaeSot evangelizing to the prisoners.

Secondary school peeps

Preveena, YungXin, Navin, Me, Yuha, Vinotha.

It's been awhile now. A year has past. We went through PMR and SPM together-gether, tuitions, camps and Bengkel SPM in UM, and all the funny happenings in school as pengawas for 5 years, being the target of almost every teachers in school LOL, boys we liked and subjects we despised but managed to put up with, and the rest of the DRAMAS...

Looking back, I kinda missed it :P

Meeting some of them up yesterday for breakfast was good :)

Preveena (Pina) : my toilet partner, dancing queen, and my one and only Twilight critic friend! ;) Instead of "Oh shiat don't look (coz someone's coming)!" she w

ent "Oh look don't shiat!" LOL. She squeeks aloott too :D

Yuha : Bravest but can be shy at times, mysterious and hard to crack her secrets out, dislikes Sony Erricson but still uses it anyway -.- used to text me when there's song played on the radio that we loveee or songs that reminded us about something/someone and I had to rush to tune in to that station :

D 'I laik your beard!'

Vinotha : The brain! Smarty skirt. She was born to do all sort of Maths questions. She wears her pyjamas as early as 5pm! :D Never underestimate her because she's highly alert in whatever conversation that's going on. "Vhy lah? Vhere are we going??" :P

YungXin : Another smart one who studied a little but is a scorer. Happy go lucky, carefree. Bowling is her forte. When she's mad, she's reeeal mad so don't mess with her or else she'll throw you her bowling ball :B Kidding teehee. I remember her gi

ving out organic lollipops because they're healthy sweets, plus h

er mom owns an organic shop :)

Navin : She's a storybook

. She has different interesting stories every time we meet. Unpredictable one haha. She's good in imitating voices for prank calls :D She should be a deejay on

the radio someday :P

One day we're all gonna come out to the world and work, ge

t married and grow some white hairs, and laugh at each other's white hairs :D We'll still remain as good friends. They are also one of the main reasons I didn't left that school. I'll never forget them.

And of course my whole classmates!

We learn, we cry, we study hard, we score, we laugh, we get laughed at, we yell at each other, we get mad at each other, we sleep in class, we eat in class, we get stressed up together, we just love each other, don't we? :P

We play hard and study hard.

We'll never forget each other.

;)

Pure Science students are NOT that nerdy okay! :D

And...

I don't understand why are all my words being underlined :S

Just relek lah ;)

After Acoustics exam today, my head felt like a spinning top (gasing). I went blank at the end part of long essay and I was praying for something to write. I tried to remember hard :( Managed to scribble some words down which I hope it made some senses but I drew the wrong diagram. Gaah!

Okie. Right after handing in my papers, I stoned with my good friend CORLISS :D and then we spontaneously drove off to Midvalley for lunch. We got stuck for approximately 45 minutes in search of an empty car park. Hey, it's only 11.30am and it's a Friday, not a public holiday, and there wasn't any space for her Inspira. Sicked, we drove off to Tropicana City Mall. Along the way, we had simple talks from music to people whom we know to random topics and I tell you we girls switched topics pretty fast. All in all, I guessed we were comfortable hanging out as good friends. I was planning to get a simple.sweet.decent.and.elegant. white dress for my friend's wedding in November.

Lunch at TCM in a Japanese restaurant (of which I couldn't remember the name of it nyeheh) was pretty good, simple home-cooked style. Then we watched a movie : The Three Musketeers! Good movie, I just love the ending, I went nuts laughing at the ending but no one laughed :x it was just farnie and entertaining to me :D Stopped by at Corliss's house and hit on some black and white keys with her, never felt so being myself at the piano for a very long time. But it was just us, without worries thinking about hitting the wrong notes or how good we are. We just sat there and played the piano and laughed :D

Oh, and we ate so much today! I guess good food will always come to me because I'm blessed :) Lunch-Tutti Frutti-Thai food in Black Canyon-Chatime. We almost wanted to get popcorns but we had this interesting mushroom-oyster snack thing. Then we shopped in Kitschen. I bought 3 new dresses and, Corliss a lovely red top. Can't wait to show them to Esther and daddy when they get back ;)

A good break right after exams with spontaneous programmes. Just relek lah ;)

I'll start my projects and important-but-i-procrastinated homeworks during weekend.

Tomorrow's breakfast with my dearies from secondary school!

Ehehe!

Cooks cooking food

Jamie Oliver's Oliver's Twist is addictive! After 3 episodes of his cooking show, I just felt like cooking. But, mom cooked dinner. Nah, I just love watching cooking tv shows- Nigella's ones are good too.

Then grandmama called, saying she's going to China, Hong Kong and some island she said again for her holidays with friends. Aiks! I haven't been to China and I want to go. And she told me I could follow her to Hai Nan Dao :D next year -.- pfft.

Planning to go on a holiday trip around Asia in December with my family, but we haven't decided where yet. Maybe just KK hahaha. As long as there's FOOD, and GOOD FOOD comes first then shopping then sight seeing, I'm so so fine with it! :D

Seafood in Kota Kinabalu should be awesome!

Cheers to FOOD!

I'm so interested in FOOD that I should cook often, but I don't really have time :'( That's frustrating, when you want to do something you like but you need to do other important stuffs first. Gaaah!

Okie, I should stop blogging and think about food but to start mugging Acoustics right NOW!

:(

Any senses?

Sitting here with my good friend, CHRISTINE OH ING YAN mugging Moral Studies, I felt laik a rotten vegetable :/

I really don't see what I'd get from memorizing Moral Studies :/

Look at the mess on our desks! :/

And we had no choice but to stone now because we had enough of memorizing it.

This blog post doesn't make any sense.

One thing I know, is that KLCC is sooo pweeeety from here :D Really! We're sitting in the first floor, looking out the window.

And we took Mentos Strawberry gum from Aleif. Yawns.

This blog post doesn't make any sense.

This is REALLY a retarded eyes-closed picture, nyeheh.

:D

OKOK back to memorising :O :/

Art of Music

Nyesterday, Someone opened my eyes on how to do solo. For the past 9 months I wasn't sure of what I'm doing in a music school. I was blur but sure to be in a music school. But I guess, this, I need not to think too much trying to have solutions for every questions in me. It's only my first year and it's also a time of trial and error period for me.

I don't have to feel bad or compare myself to other musicians. It's a year of discovering and learning. It's a process, There is a time for everything, definitely. And in His time, because this is where He has placed me in, He'll see me through every seasons and will prosper me according to His own timing. Same goes to everyone too where He sent you out to where your field is, His favour will be with you, provided that we must walk closely with Him daily.

Learning the art of Music is a process.

I'm praying everyday, asking the Lord what's my strength in this area so that I can use it, and what's my weakness so that I can improve it.

:)

Happy Tinker alas!

After the long hours of jam in KL, I threw myself on the couch and decided to watch Tinker Bell on Disney channel. Never felt like a 5-year-old kiddie again! :D

The storyline started off with Tinker Bell not very happy with who she is and what her talent is. She compares herself with her friends who are the Nature-talent Fairies (garden fairies, water fairies, light fairies, animal fairies etc.). Only the Nature-talent Fairies are able to cross over to the mainland(where we humans live) to bring each season. She wants to visit the mainland but couldn't because she's a tinker and tinkers do crafts. Finally, after all the troubles and trials she has gone thru', she learns to accept who she is and her talent as a tinker, and of corse happy with what she's doing. The End.

The best part is, there's NO mushy mushy smoochy kissing scenes! Nowadays it's so hard to find chick flicks girly movies without any of those thingy in it. Hey, even cartoons these days have those stuffs and I laik Tinker Bell because it has lessons behind it without those stuffs hehe :)

Behind all wonderland stories and fairy tales, little girls (or once a little girl :P) long to be part of something special or someone special (or someone's special one *eyebrows up down :D).

Man, I want to be a fairy nao!! So that I can flaaaaaaai (fly) teehee!

Take my heart, won't You make me new (again)

I longed for this heart of worship again, and my fingers to run and roll freely on the keys with the Holy Spirit again.



Here I stand
Before You my heart is still
Wanting just to be with You
Waiting here
I long for Your voice to speak
Touch me now
It's Your face I seek

How my soul longs for You
To be with You, adore You
Nothing more I want to do
Than to sing to You

Jesus, I'm in love with You
Speak to me
Whisper Your words of truth
TAKE MY HEART
WON'T YOU MAKE ME NEW
Jesus, how I love You
How I love You

On my knees
Before You I lay my life
Giving all, a living sacrifice
Take my life
And all that I long to be
Set apart, only for You my King

How my soul longs for You (x4)

This song has been playing in my head for 2 weeks. I finally got the lyrics right. Some old song lyrics are still dear and meaningful to me :) I like songs from different composers. But it just so happen it's one of Planet Shakers' song again nyeheh.

Annoying people

While we were out today, I saw 2 situations with my mom which really annoyed us, especially me.

1. This lady who took a bag of rice from the shelves in Tesco, discovered and realized that the rice bag had a huge hole. Doing nothing, she left the rice pouring down like a running tap. What a waste! She knew it, but pretended not to know it and was busy lifting up another rice bag. Fuming, I went up and tilted the holed rice bag so that it stopped pouring down. Gee lady, what were you thinking! She definitely knew nothing how precious food are!! I had to swallow down my words of anger I almost lashed out my frustration at that lady.
2. This man, was pasting papers of 'skim pinjaman' with contact numbers on a TNB electric metal cupboard. He was tearing down old papers and yellow papers and deliberately left them on the ground! In the first place, no one is supposed to paste any advertisement on it, it's wrong. This litter bug really bugged my mind today.

Some people just need to learn how to be considerate and civilize la. Ish!