Joy of the Lord shall be my strength!

I am so full with the joy of the HS right now! Everyday I'm very thankful for the food, the weather, the city, the friends, the scenery, the insights, the word, the whispering promises, the love, everything beautiful you can ever possible imagine off to having someone who loves you so, so, so, so... so... much!

God's peace is with me. Do you know, I have so many stories to write them down here ever since I arrived Boston but I just couldn't? Because I want to tell it face to face! It's more fun and real in that way ;)

So overwhelmed.

:) :D :D ;P :) :)

Today Is The Day

Oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh.

Today is the day... My first class as a Berklee student! So I happily grabbed my student ID tag and slipped it right in to my bag and off I went for class- my first Piano lesson. Nope, I don't want to pose up my ID and photo all here, in case of fraught ;PP Paranoid. Copyright. Nerd.

Lecturers in Berklee are legendaries. Boi am I so glad to be part of the Berklee family.

This evening I have written down all my goals, dreams and breakthru(s) for THIS SEASON that I wanna see them accomplished in my life, 2 years here in Boston city and music college. It's a great way for a summer kick start. To have your mind set right, know what you wanna do, know the purpose of God and have peace with it!

Dream big. Coz our God is big. Jesus, to be precise.

And yes, I am very proud of my Father in heaven. He has done such a wonderful amazing job as a father to me here. Also, my prayers for good godly friends have been answered.

Now that my goals and dreams are all set, I'm also looking forward for the process of having breakthroughs in my life. The good that comes out of a pressured period is an added blessing.

I will keep praying

Today, it just dawn on me that loneliness finally hit me. Do you know what it feels like to have yourself separated from friends and family at home? And the feeling of entering a new place you never enter before, where you have to start over from SCRATCH making new friends, choosing friends (so important), meeting new people, establishing friendship and new contacts, putting things and yourself together and whatever not. To some people it's exciting. To me, at some point of time, it's also exciting. But when I'm all alone in my room, that's where I just let my hair down and talk to God about what I'm really feeling and what exactly I'm going through. Back home everything is already there. You have your "pack/herd" with you, people you trust talking to and you're all so nicey nice and comfortable with things. Well, I just had to go through this, I don't know why. Maybe I know why, but I just don't what to confront it.

I will keep praying- for a breakthrough in all my struggles.

May 22

Some great strawberries I bought today at Shaws.

Buy 1 free 1! And it's only like $3.99.

Hugeee and sweet!

I made some food today. Sudden craving for colourful veges.

My study table with the oversized portion of food. Oh dearie. Mashed potatoes were so filling.

And the apartment view from my window.

Today's weather is rather chilly. I zone out pretty quickly these days. Not sure why. Even on orientation week! Ah wells, I'm gonna sleep soon. Everyday is a new day.

One day at a time with the Lord.

:)

I just...

You know my needs and You know my cries.
You know what's going on because You have eyes.

I just... want to see myself getting out of it soon.

:'(

Chilling on one evening

Not having my iPhone yet drives me up the wall sometimes hahaha. Like when I really wanna take a good picture, or whatsapp my sister, mom and dad, I first have to turn on my laptop and FB and inbox them. Gaah! I will get my phone soon, once my Prepaid credit has timed out.

You know what? It was raining, and now the air here is so so cooling :))

Outside my window, there's this lady singing with her guitar, I think she's my neighbour hahaha. When I was dusting the carpet just now, I saw a door open, like freely. People here are not as paranoid as Malaysians because the crime rate here is pretty steady. Minus the bombing part. Okay, maybe this is not so a good way to measure crime rate or whatever not okay ahh! Anyway, anyway!! So, she's sitting by the apartment doorstep where people walk, and there she is, singing so freely. America, free country hah. And her friends would passed her by and they would greet and chat with one another.

Both my windows are open. Love the air. It's funny there isn't any mosquitoes around. Teehee.

Tomorrow's orientation! I'm so nervous giler. 

Now that my room is pretty clean, and after putting up cards and boxes that made it looked a little like home, I should probably go now. I hope the plumber is done with his thing.

Tomorrow's the big start of my academy. Like the overview of what to expect. A sneak preview of what's going to take place as a Berklee student. God be my strength. I'm here to learn.

More than being independent

Nowadays, whenever a doubt or confusion come across me, I get answers quite fast to clear them off of me. Maybe back home I read the Bible but I did not chew the word properly and just swallow them down. But now when I came here, I have to carefully read them and really really meditate and attached those words to my heart, like super glue them onto myself. So that wherever I go, I can tell them to people and friends. Knowing them by HEART can be very useful to help others, also myself, when I share to them.

I was fruits-and-vegetables deprived since Tuesday. Mom always cook vegetables and provide fruits like bananas, apples, oranges, watermelons whatever not at home. Today, I told myself I have to start knowing where to get all these healthy food! I know there are some places that I could get, I just need to ask where are those places. Since I was pretty desperate for one healthy breakfast, I marched down to Whole Foods Market, some organic shop and bought myself Grapes and Mixed Berries. Boi am I so glad to have them for breakfast! And peach yougurt. And the milk tastes funny to my tongue. But the blueberry muffins were... alright.

As I chew those berries- the strawberries are awesome!- I chewed on the word of God too. Today's Daily Bread talks about Romans10:8-15 and it was important. I had a conversation with a friend and this just confirmed about what I believe and it is true. Everybody has opinions. But the Bible will always be the truth. Always check with the Bible.

So now that I'm alone and my sister is not here to tell me her thoughts and views about the God's kingdom, that I agree with her all the time, of how we are supposed to operate and function as God's children, I have to have my own thoughts and view about things now. And always check with the Bible.

Amazing. It's like God is watching over me and He is taking good care of me. He is doing such a great job. This is not just only about learning how to be independent, it's more to that, I just can tell. Looking forward to what He has in store for me.

Love! :))

Tis' the season to be jolly

A lot of things God told me before. And now that I'm seeing those things coming to past. His words will come to past. It's just so so amazing. I'm like literally filled with so much joy, gladness and gratitude now for what is happening.

Initially it was hard. But God will work things out for me. I'm just so looking forward to it. I came here because of Him. To do what He told me to do from the very beginning. And that I know His hand is with me in this.

Time for new things. I'm getting all set! So many things I felt like I will have to deal with them, and I know after this season, I'm going to be a whole lot stronger in person, character and in spirit.

So encouraged today by this new group of friends I met in church. We are all students, who wants to do the right thing for God, who knows that this is a calling, and who wants to shine the light for Jesus. But we're all not perfect, we face with challenges in our lives that try so hard to block us from moving forward but by God's power and strength we can overcome them. We have the power and authority from God because we are His children and His inheritance. And that HS will always help us when we ask. HS is so so important I can't help it but to stress on this like so many times. It's true. And I really respect these people as friends.

I feel like writing down more stuffs here but it's just better if I do it in my journal. All in all, today was just a wonderful day. A kick start to something. This is a season for God to groom me into somebody. Ahhh, it's going to be a process! But it's not by my might or what I can do, it's God's.

:)

I ate an apple today. Never felt healthier before since I arrived hahaha.

Sunday yay!

I picked up my friend's guitar, just to play Alabaster Jar. And then the guitar strings were so out of tune hahaha. I tried tuning it and then, yikes forget it. I'll sing solo. And then I realized what Youtubes are for hahaha!

God might just face palm me just now.

But yeah, it's a Sunday! I've always loved Sunday. So looking forward for church.

God knows

You know the first week of something new, I'm swimming and swimming, sometimes it feels like I'm drowning, but I know it in my heart that God is kind and He will show me His kindness.

Time to grow up, girl.

Looking out at my window, enjoying the evening breeze, just made me lift up my hands and praise my Jesus. For all that He did for me and my family, back at home, how He cared so much for us from our health to well-being, and how He helped us in difficult times. From there, we were strengthen and delivered from our old and enter in to the new. And how He has brought me out of KL to here! Now that's a testimony.

Coming over to Boston is just right for me. I felt that I really needed to be away from familiarity. I had to grow up. Simple as that. Not only learning how to settle bank accounts and get my directions right on the streets, I also had to learn about dealing with people, finding the right friends, get my own things done independently and so on. Do you know, hearing from people who have gone away from their home saying that God is still the same and He is with them, no matter where they are, I find it really awesome and now that I am actually experiencing it just makes it so personal to me. God is still the same loving God I knew when I was in Malaysia. He still guides and speaks the very same way how He used to do that at home. Yes, I'm very dependent on my home church and family. That's because I grew up in that loving environment. But now that I'm away from them, I had to see and feel the real world out there. That is where maturity and growing take place. That is also where I can seek wisdom from God and sharpen my discernment in hearing Him. HS is so important. He has been such a helpful friend.

I do made mistakes when I got here. I get annoyed at myself for it too. My sister is the one who gives wise advice and (still) helps me to bring my feet up again. It's time for me to have my own stand. I may get carried away, but all these I have to learn to stand on my ground. What I know I should do, I should do it and not letting others decide on what I should do.

Nothing is going to be easy but I really thank God that He's with me. I can always ask Him to give me wisdom when I speak to a friend, to the banker, to the waiter, to the school counselor, to the lecturers to anybody. It's a new season, a new chapter in my book where God is the author of it. So far, I'm liking this city.

I know I am going to be strong in the Spirit. I had to come here to learn how to deal with my weaknesses. It's not easy, really. Talk to someone myself, to speak up, to learn up my directions, to make a decision and whatever not. God will help to see it to completion until the end of this season. He is faithful and He will never fail us. He will not put me to shame. He is good and He will see me through it.

Did I mention, the hamburgers here are awesome?!! So is the weather. They change like crazy. Summer can be cold. Winter can be hot. Hahaha, PMS.

Girlies, Missies, Youths, Music, Fun, Learning, longest blog title ever.

Yesterday was my last goodbye with HIS church.

I received some more gifts and the photos are up in Instagram.

I will miss them all.

Here are some photos.

There will be more coming up, a little bit here and there.

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We were at Israel Houghton's concert this year in April.

And I will miss the Sundays

It's been a wonderful time with this team for a year and a half. 

I wish that there's more time to know them a little but more. But yeah! We will still keep in touch :D

The Intruder

You know, I really want to rant it out but not in public like FB.

I know who my close friends are. I don't like it when you pretend to be my close friend and announce it in public. I don't usually say no when friends come and visit me. But if you are going to act as if you are my somebody or like as if I know you for so long like we are buddies, and now that I really need my own space at home before I leave all my loved ones and my best friend(s) (they know who they are), but you came barging into my place and sat down there like a boss. And to top that up, you even disturb my other close friends by contacting them when my friends are all busy with college and work.

Have you not have any courtesy and sensitivity in you at all?

We were never close friends. I don't think we will ever.

I shall not continue to write down the rest of the details, of how you have upset me.

The last few days

The last few days in Malaysia has been an emotional one.
From the 13th General Elections (GE13) to the friends sincerely meeting up with me, who came all the way to my place to spend time with me, those who contacted me to meet me up, and the friends who prayed for me in Cell Group, at Youth, during worship team meeting and debriefing time and practically every time I meet these guys they would pray for me. So encouraged.

:')

And my bruther and sister have been so good to me, not just because that I'm leaving or what, they have been always good to me hahaha. Well, I will miss them, especially Derrick's joke which cracks me up, and his perfect measurement in making tea for me. That 12-year-old really is an adorable fella in this family. Esther also gave me some heads up about living in the overseas. From safety to friends to growing spiritually and all. It's good to have her around. Now that she won't be with me in the States, I have to be... (here comes the word)... independent !

So here is the big family ! And yeah, some came later and the group became bigger. But it's alright, even if their faces are not in this bigg photo... You guys are, in another photo then hahaha! You guys are still in my heart :))

They threw me a surprise farewell party on one Saturday! The video caught me live and I barely could find a place to hide myself. It's on FB. Thanks for coming and all the effort made. :)

A dear friend of mine who bought this for me!

The very loving family I have

The cook (specializes in Asian Fusion) , the smarty pants (like seriously smart! Applying for Harvard now), the nutritionist, the very dedicated teacher who gave up all the hard years of studying actuarial science for her passion- teaching, she can sing really well too! The IT man and of course the lawyer whom I admire most- my sister.

The fashion designer whom has 3 other siblings that doesn't look like each other hahaha! Awesome foursome Ngion siblings.

Yes, this is the wonderful friend who bought the Oreo Cheesecake :D

And the babes over here whom went through the ups and downs of secondary school life with me. I love them. Two weren't here. They are now in Canada. JPA Scholars man :)

The talented MD from the Philippines, the Maths teacher who is so good in Maths (hahaha!), I mean numbers and figures, the inspiring writer and his brother, the mind-reader? Haha.  They are the Ngion Brothers. Awesome peeps. And the whacky guys with so much of talents in them waiting to be unleashed.

She's like a little sister to me- Shereen. I have her names all over my SkyBurger game in iPhone. Hahah.

After this, my camera got spammed by these bunch of jokers :D

The drummer and keyboardist. Who stays so far in Klang, yet dedicated serving in the worship team.

And here comes the other gang. It's a campur group of friends.  Prayer warriors, fantastic musicians and of many more.

Then comes my cousin who made me wear this... thing hahaha! She wanted to snap with a "Princess" lolol.

The finale but not yet the finale : Sam from the Philippines and Nick from PJ, whom I always enjoy playing with these gifted musicians on Sundays. And Thursday practices too. Whee!

So, I guess there will be more photos coming in soon. I hope I have time to upload them here. Oh yes, and the gifts!

Ehehe. I took it from my Instagram :P Mini size.
Thanks for the beautiful card made with love from the creative sister Hazel Joy :D And the drawings, perfume, heart-shaped wallet, jacket and bracelet from Canada.

Oh ohh, wait one more. :PP

The babes who came and visited me at home. 7 years of friendship and still going on. Love these girlies.

Okay.
The End.
For now.

:D

Martin Smith - Waiting Here For You w/ lyrics

This song has been stuck in my head for as long as I can remember. Since Francis the MD introduced this song to the worship team :D