Uncertainly Certain

Attended Adele Lim's talk on Writing for TV series. If you don't know her, google her. She's awesome, a Malaysian whom made it to the Hollywood fame. Some of her works include One Tree Hill, Private Practice, Los Angeles and more.

I can't believe that I drove all the way there, without really knowing the roads, sat in the auditorium alone with a whole bunch of strangers and did the rest of the 'carrying myself' through the session. By the way, the parking system there is so weird.

Been having church practices non-stop again this year. Christmas is coming. I hope that one day I would be able to sit back and relax (actually I did that already last year) and enjoy Christmas service without fretting about presentations and trying my best to remember all my parts on the keyboard and the band. Well, it's an honour serving the King in His house, especially on His birthday. So, no complains. Do it with a cheerful heart; do it with excellence!

Anyway, today, (yea yea, the girl who's searching for her directions in life, it you're bored, don't read. I sometimes get bored of it too heheh) come to think about it, all these while I love to plan, plan, plan and get my security from those planning. My staying here wouldn't be the same like my sister, lawyer for the rest of her life! I thought that mine would have the same fixed job forever and ever Amen, but, it looks like I'm not destined to have that kind of life. Clearly, I have to solely depend on God's provision, directions, and especially financially. I have choices to make, what I wanna do, and so much more to discover what I like to do. But at the end of the day, I know that music will always be the focus, because He chose to gimme that gift and I have to serve Him in that area. God knows what the reason is behind it, I don't know, but He's sure that that gift is suitable for that person; He's sure that this gift is suitable for Dapernie Wee.

I'm positive that God is not a boring God. He loves adventures.
I'm also expecting a lot from Him next year. Even thought I don't quite figure what's gonna happen next year. Life is so uncertainly certain. Fun, but it requires you to take a new level of faith each time.

Good thing I'm not working in offices 9 to 5 kind of theng. My forehead would magically print out the word 'BOREDOM' for my boss to read.

Stuck Truck On A Highway

The car door was slammed. I peered outside my window, only to find a MAS air hostess standing at her gate, both hands dragging the luggage bags. It's my neighbour. She's back and her little son came out happily to greet his mother home. After a few minutes, another car came roaring at my neighbour's front gate. It was a black monster truck (that's what I called it, coz it's big and high). There came the man of the house. I bet he's happy at the very moment, after the long waiting for his wife to come home from work. Do I really want that kind of life in 10 years down the road?

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Went out for lunch with bro. Overheard a table talking about business and plans and what and how about work. I love planning, oh yes I do, especially when it comes to the detail work. When I got back from a wedding rehearsal yesterday and started thinking to myself, what an event planner's life would be. Stressful and tiring, yet it's going to be a satisfying result once the event is done and was carried out wonderfully. You get to see all sort of people in the event and all, and look around feeling proud of your work. But the downside is that you have to sometimes work on Sundays. I love weddings, fairs, parades, birthdays, anniversaries, reunions, graduations, fashion shows, concerts and all (I think everybodeh loves that too right) I want to see things planned out well and smooth and everyone enjoying the night. The food, deco, drinks, programs and what not. Events planning sound like an interesting job.

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I looked through the profile of some film composers like Randy Newman, only for today I just thought of googling him. Something about film scoring that always keeps me attracted to it. It's the music. The song writing. The composing. The lyrics. The job of course, and that I don't really have to put on live shows on pubs, bars and clubs. I get to stay at home or be in a studio with producers and other cool musicians, and sometimes, the team might travel. At the end of the day, once the movie is out, everyone would feel proud of something they did in the movie and everyone's watching it and that is just so awesome after all the hard work and sleepless nights. And you can edit the soundtracks and make them into perfecto musico. That's all that I can picture now but of course there's more.

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So, I hope to have a conclusion soon. The fees for Berklee is getting darn expensive. If I switch my direction, 2 years is ICOM is gonna be a waste. It's like Imma stuck truck on the highway. God, please show me which way.

Sincerely,
Daphne

This Is Our God : What Child Is This

This is the God that I've heard of since young, and now serving Him.

I've always wanted to do lots of things for Him. I've always thought that I should do something for God so that He is made known through me my lifestyles, attitude, personality, character, ministry, music career, family and relationship to make Him happy and proud of me. Bla bla own strength, own plans, own thinking, self-righteousness. Yes yes, we also ought to make sure all of these go well with Christ. With the help of the HS and depending of God's might. I know He can do everything, even the impossible ones. We all have heard of it, it's in the Word.
Truth is, even when I didn't love Him first, He already did- He already love me and is willing to do anything for me. That includes you, even if you can't believe it, it's done already. Just like how you got a free pass you don't have to pay for your parking ticket, because someone has already paid for you, you don't believe it but it's already done. Just accept it and enjoy the privilege. And of course appreciate it and be thankful.

Most of the time, being brought up in a Christian family, hearing so much about God and all, only experiencing Him can change everything. Words come to life, heart got convicted, life transformed, truths that set me free, learning how to think like Christ, be an overcomer and so much more and it's amazing.

In Him, there is no fear. But there is love, hope and power to overcome tough stuffs in life.

Fragments of Thoughts

My FB needs a cover photo soon, and a new profile picture. My Twitter cannot survive if it's just a green egg. And my blog... It's so full of words.

Okay! I will add albums to my FB soon. And more pictures on blog. After 23rd of December I hope.

I still think it's kinda a waste of time doing all these.

Coz, there's a lot of photos if I wanna upload them.

Anyway, am lovin' the morning rainy weather today :)

Happy.

When doing

Note to self and all my beloved friends reading this:

Do everything, everything with a cheerful heart, for God. It won't go to waste, time and effort, sacrifices and everything else. You know you have made a friend, in fact the most important friend you can ever have, smiled, and He is very happy. It will be meaningful.

Tho' the results may not be visible right now, remember that we have sown the seed for next time.
Rewards may not appear straightaway, but don't lose hope and don't quit believing.
Healing may not come instantly, maybe in a gradual manner.

Faith is being sure of what we hope for it. It is being certain of what we do not see.
This God I serve keeps His promise, read Hebrews, or 1 Peter chapter 1 or Romans or any part of that book. I believe in every word said in it. It strengthens. It gives hope when we have nothing to cling on to.

After all, when we suffer, we are full of joy because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the HS, whom He has given us.

Before I sleep tonight

You know what's the best thing everr to do?

Enjoy the present. Not thinking about the past (but you can appreciate what's from the past- successes, failures and disappointment, count them all as learning and be thankful) and not worrying about the future!

Enjoy the present!

Work smart. Eat well. Spend well- time, money and love.

Seek first the Kingdom of God. God will take care. It was hard to put in action at first, but I learn to give him back my future because I robbed it away from His hand. No point worrying and stressing out like a freak that cause you to be dull and sulk like a long cucumber. Also, no point frowning about the past, it won't do any good for your future and especially your present. So why waste time and energy dwelling the past and living in the future so much, Dafahnie?

Enjoy every present moment. Be a blessing to others and find satisfaction and fulfillment when we serve others. Tired at first, but I remember once someone (oh cwrappp I forgotten who that fellow is shucks) said that STRENGTH IS FOR SERVICE, NOT STATUS.

I remember who it is!! It's Sidney Mohede and I'm too lazy to delete what I've just typed above.

Anyway, God will give strength to those who need it. Strength to serve others, not to build my own "kingdom", reputation, power and influence. Tiring, to have to maintain and keep up with whatever that needs to once you're in the lime light. I want to see others happy more than anything else coz that makes me happy. It's beautiful when you see smiles on faces, don't you think so? Smiles are gifts from God.

Ok, maybe not so much on this cheeky kid hahahah!

Rawr!

:)
Teehee!

Goodnight.

Happy Feeling

I thought that my Arranging for Horns was terrible, that's why my final grade was a C+

(I've never gotten a C+ before in my exams! Okay, lies, except for one English paper in college last year, coz I wrote out of topic about Beatlesmania, and Physics in one of my form 4 monthly exams). Anything below B- is badd.

So, I sought for comments from my lecturer and he said that my project was a pretty awesome chart. In fact I got an A for my finals! But but, what went wrong? Was it because of my first project? That I've submitted late? And my saxes aren't coming out after I burned them in a cd. Or it was just plain... terrible. Anticipating for his second reply on FB right now.

This brighten up my day today. If I didn't have asked him, I might suffer from this "I-suck-in-arranging"syndrome forever and it becomes a huge stumbling block in me. This taught me a lesson too. Never give up hope so easily. Even if it's really terrible, try again. If it's the 11th time you still don't make it, then give up (Okay this is my theory hehe) and move on with something else in life. At least now that I know my project isn't a dump or a bunk idea, I still can do something about it by improving whatever I need to improve.

Sis is coming back from KK later. Sent my car for service. Happy. Transcribing a Christmas song for the church. Pitch Perfect tomorrow with my friends (I hope it turns out haha). Supposed to go for rock climbing with my high school friend but I have practice in church later on. Bought like so many dresses for Christmas season. Looking forward to 2 functions to attend this weekend. And and, mom's making lasagna for lunch righttt now!! Omgaah I'm rambling again.

Just feelin' happy.

:)

Right Now

Maybe all these while I've been using my own strength.
No wonder the tiredness and endless frustrations, when things didn't turn out the way I wanted.
Harsh, but maybe I needed these to teach me a lesson.

That awful feeling when you choke on your tears.

Simple Christmas Message

I find this message is so cute. Dad shared this from his friend who've emailed him early today.
It's Christmas month everyone! Christmas is a time to love.
It's not just a celebration with performance, food, fun and music, it's deeper than that. If only we could search a little more in this Christmas season.

It's all about LOVE!
:)

Lucy

Narnia has this great impact every time I watch it, especially on our walk with God, individually. That's what that makes me wanna watch Narnia every time, in every seasons of life, to remind me of who God is and what He can do. There's so many insightful words and meaning in it and CS Lewis is the all time one of the greatest writers ever in history. I wish I could meet him but he's... dead.

:(((

One of the scenes that I really love in the 2nd Narnia is at 2:21. Lucy knows that with Aslan, not any evil or powerful men can shake her faith. She doesn't look at the circumstances around her, she trusted Aslan because she knows who He is, and what He can do. All she needs is Aslan. I love it because Lucy knows she couldn't do it alone by herself (to take down all those men) and she has only one small dagger with her. But behind her, there stands the Great King Aslan. She fears not of the situation and what men can do to her. Thus, she walks confidently on the bridge (another significant event, bridges : when we cross something in life), knowing who's with her.

La Luna (Pixar)

I've watched this a long time ago but it still makes me wanna eat the stars! Crunchy. Inspiring.

Crap

I need to unwind myself here. But I just couldn't do it here. Coz all people do is talk and judge. When they see your new status on FB, Twitter post or blogs.

You guys just gotta stop having so much expectation on me as a musician.
And if I don't do this and that for you, you judge! What the hell.
Throwing me last minute jobs and all because no one wants to take them, well cut it out!