Get set

A new beginning : Where the worries of my past will be forgotten.
When it comes, I wanna be ready.

Got it

I always thought to myself this : Do the mistakes I've made slow down God's plan for me? Instead of it should be happening at this timing, my fault has caused it to be delayed?

No. Everything happens for a reason. Even my mistakes. God knows already. And He has made plans about it. Everything is in His good and loving hand.

Omgaaah :) Brilliant.

A Glum Evening

"I'll lock you out of the house."
"Go away!"
"I don't want you!"
"Go away!!"
"I don't like you...!"

Words like these came out from a parent to his son. I overheard him in my neighborhood (Noo I'm not a stalker, just, overheard). Yess, I kinda agree that the son is a little mischievous because he's this annoying alarm clock early in the morning, screaming and yeah, literally screaming at the top of his lungs for nothing. And that... woke me up.

But, I believe that no matter how badly behaved a child is, never EVER use words like that.
Words are powerful. It's even more deteriorating if the child's love language is by words of affirmation.

The child was speechless. In the end, he said back to his dad :"Dee! I don't like you!"

:'( what a glum conversation. I shouldn't have eavesdropped.

Little Things

¹⁰ Whoever can be trusted with small things can also be trusted with big things. Whoever is dishonest in little things will be dishonest in big things too. 

Luke 16:10

Start by doing small things to honor God. God sees the heart. Don't fret about when the big things are coming. They will come.

:)

Everyday is a gift from God. Spend the day wisely.

Thinking About You - David Choi [ Lyrics ]

Thinking About You Lyrics
By: David Choi

Everybody needs someone
Everybody needs love, love
Everybody wants something to believe in

Everybody is waiting
Waiting for that someone
That makes their heart jump out

Live a life like you are dreaming, yeah
Oh, I want that feeling

I'm thinking about you
Are you thinking of me too?
I'm thinking about you
I hope you're thinking of me too

Looking for a treasure
Worth more than gold
It's been found, I've been told

But I've been searching
Across the seas
Oh could it be right in front of me?

For now I'll entertain this daydream
I wonder what you're feeling

I'm thinking about you
Are you thinking of me too?
I'm thinking about you
I hope you're thinking of me too

• 
  

Nigel Tay - Song of Spring (Original)

Song of Spring©
Written by Nigel Tay, Nicole Shin and David Moran

What's that sound,
I hear it all around
Looks like the birds are chirping
And the bees are buzzing
In this beautiful town

If you're feeling it too
Go on take of your shoes
Put your feet in the grass
Hope the moment will last
I'm sticking with you

Uh-oh, Uh-oh,
It's a beautiful day out, to walk tall and proud
So sing to the song of your heart that set you apart
Uh-oh, Uh-oh,
We can sing on forever, with every tune louder

So take my hand come along with me,
the breeze and trees are working perfectly to find the place in your mind
Don't keep them waiting, the boat is sailing
I hope you embrace the beautiful, I hope you embrace the beautiful

If not then all would be a wasted

OH anyway,
let's get back to our story..
Soaking up the sun,
oh all the fun,
Certainly not folly

Website: www.nigeltay.bandcamp.com

Listen To Me, Clara C! (Playlist)

This is one of her old videos. Heheh. (I think her vids have changed because it's a playlist hhahah!)
(It's supposed to be her singing a song to her siblings)
I hope to meet her one day.
Missed her on that day she came down to KL, but Esther got to see her show and my sister bought her album.
Inside, she wrote a song named "Daphne", obviously it's for her friend who has the same name with me hahaha :D
I love her instrumentation combination variety in all her songs.
The ART in my heART.

I'm like that (lah)

I'm so excited to blog today!
*Flashes teeth

So far so good. Resting at home isn't a waste of time after all.
I told myself, doing housework and all is just to help out mom, dad, bro and sis. Everyone's so busy.
Two comes home in the afternoon after school. The other two comes home like... 12.30am after work. And I'd stay up late just for the two lawyers to come home. Chat? Sometimes. Most of the time, they have NO HOUSE KEY with them that's whyy!! @.@

Anyway, heheh, rest.

I actually listed down all my favourite artists this morning. Realized that only a handful of jazz artists (actually, less than five of them, and most of them aren't the hardcore jazzers) are on my list. It's okay, I told myself, just be honest and truthful to myself. It's okay if I didn't really like jazz. I tried to understand and love it. And Mr.But came along the way and interfered my honesty and integrity in music.

I just wanna be truthful to myself.

I like what I like. I tried to like what I haven't liked, and I did make my efforts. Maybe someday, when my ears decided to give me a surprise again. Looking forward for that day :)

***

It's amazing. I began to slowly find out the things that I like : food, music, clothes, style, interest, movies, hobbies, and friends, and so much more. I'm happy for what's going on, even though I'm already 20. Sometimes the voice inside me tells me this : "You should have done this a long time ago, sis!!" Well, shaddap. There's a time for everything. Even if I'd screwed up in the past, I still have the present to make up to.

I love the way You created me this way.
:)

Be Ok (acoustic)- Ingrid Michaelson

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today

[CHORUS:]
Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts

I just want to know today, know today, know today
I just want to know something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok

[CHORUS]

Just give me back my pieces
Just give them back to me please
Just give me back my pieces
And let me hold my broken parts

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok

Dialogue

A morning with Hiromi Uehara's songs.

Three albums.

Another Mind. Spiral. Brain.

So inspiring.

Her music speaks.

Can tell that her piano playing is original and zesty!

Fast Forward

Do you know what I wanna do, right now?

Fast forward everything and live in the next... one and a half year later? Maybe?

Why?

This whole Berklee application thing is bugging my life. It worries me like day and night! You know what's funny?? I remember my all my worries, every single detail about them but not what I ate for dinner yesterday.

Can they not complicate stuffs and make the whole application process clear and smooth, ah? Can? Especially the audition dates. It's a hassle. And I don't have the peace and inspiration (yet) to actually come up with a song for the audition :(

Mean time, I want to work. I hope to get a job, music related ones (definitely not teaching, been there done that, dont wanna do it anymore for now) and not just doing housework for these 8 months, and getting nagged because I slack only one day of not doing housework. I hate the nagging. A lot.

Later

And in the evening, my aunt from Singapore came down. She bought me a Mac makeup and Kenzo perfume for ladies. Mom surprised me with 7 little tarts and they. were. good.

Birthday Happy

Birthdays are days where we remember the day that we were born.

I'm happy to be born. This year is my 20th year surviving on this planet.

But this year, I feel a little... different. Know why?

Coz I'm entering into young adulthood!

20

20

20

2020

202020

Okay 20. 

Just 20.

2020 gahaha Wawasan.

So, I had an early spontaneous birthday night out with two of my high school friends.

That one on the left (okay picture time :D) is Alex.

We were in the same drama team since I was in Form 1; same prefectorial board until we got bored of it. He's a year older than both of us.

The one in the middle is Faith.

Met her when I was in primary school, while we sitting for the UPSR.

(Omg UPSR was so yesterday, my lil bro is sitting for it this year)

And that's how our friendship began.

Sadly, she moved to home schooling when we were 15.

But, somehow, the three of us still talk like friends back in high school.

If I continue writing about stuffs that we do, it's gonna be long.

And we played Monopoly Deal at The Bee in Jaya One.

Yeah, finance boi from PJ won the deal that night.

Good job :P

Fashion designer and musician were pretty good at that game too :P

And then I woke up this morning, to find a gift from my big sister!

I'm not a teddy bear fan but it's so funnie to find one today. On my floor. On top of the gift box.
With no eyes.
Hahaha!

Assortment gifts from my big sister and lil bro. Every gift comes with a small hand made note in it. 

:')

Look at all the effort these two have put in.

(There are more cards in those bags actually)

These are just the morning surprises.

And yesterday's random milkshake party.

Gosh the milkshakes are awesome!!

It's Escalating

Ever since I started using my new phone, I seldom blog. I can easily update my statuses on my Twit and FB. So the laziness and slack off of taking time to write. Apologies from my side.

So I read some of my old posts. It looks as if Daphne Wee's life is half hanging. Well I can tell you, that, living the Christian life is always half hanging because I'll never know the full plan of it until what the Lord directs me to do. It's kinda like mysterious. Thing is, even if I'm like half hanging, it's okay to me. I'm worried least, whether will I make it in life or something, what I eat; what I drink; what I wear; who I date; who I'll marry; house I stay and all.

Right now, I wanna prepare myself for Boston- a city full of people, party and play. It's gonna be a great leap for me. A small town girl who moved with her whole family to a just a slightly bigger town when she was 11, had to adapt to the new environment, been brought up loving to stay at home most of the time, having a mom to cook, a sister to hang out with (well now it's getting far apart because she has to work) and a brother to play with (tho he's little, he gives me good advice most of the time- I have a genius brother ! ), and a dad to look after me when I'm sick. And soon, the time will come when I have to leave all these behind, and the past which I'm calling them present now, bittersweet memories and worries behind and jump into the deep blue sea somewhere in the United States. All alone. And that's where a new beginning begins. For awhile, and then I'll be back in no time.

A great leap like that it's like from using a Nokia 2700 to using the latest iPhone.

There's an adventure awaits for me. There's a test for me to sit. There's a time (no, all the time) I MUST rely on God to take care of me- physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

So the prophecy from a prophet shall come upon me.

I'm growing up. And I'm afraid.

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6 is fast tight inside my heart.

There's so much more to update in this blog, but they are too private for me to write them down here. That's all for now. It's escalating. 2013 is the year for me, my family and HIS church. It just started.

Matthew 5:3-10

³ “Great blessings belong to those who know they are spiritually in need.^[d]
    God’s kingdom belongs to them.
⁴ Great blessings belong to those who are sad now.
    God will comfort them.
⁵ Great blessings belong to those who are humble.
    They will be given the land God promised.^[e]
6 Great blessings belong to those who want to do right more than anything else.^[f]
    God will fully satisfy them.
⁷ Great blessings belong to those who show mercy to others.
    Mercy will be given to them.
⁸ Great blessings belong to those whose thoughts are pure.
    They will be with God.
⁹ Great blessings belong to those who work to bring peace.
    God will call them his sons and daughters.
¹⁰ Great blessings belong to those who suffer persecution for doing what is right.
    God’s kingdom belongs to them."