Dog days

Thought of getting a dog as my pet. Man's best friend eh??

Actually, I thought that by having a dog at home would help me overcome my FEAR FOR DOGS. You have nuuuuu idea how terrifying dogs can be to me. Cute at times, but absolutely high in potential to bite me everytime I get near to dogs... It's a feeling. Hee.

When I was young, aged of just started leaning how to walk on tiny feet, my sister used to let out her black dog on purpose at home to chase after me like nobody's business. I eventually somehow don't know how came to a dead end, and it tagged me down and growled at me. Me and my bulging eyes of fear, epic! Another time was while I was strolling at my old taman with my best friend (Vivien), Crystal's black dog (black dog again -.-) dashed out from their gate and strived enthusiastically towards our direction. Obviously, first instinct is to RUN FOR MY LIFE!! Lesson 1 is to NOT TO RUN when you see a dog. That, I phailed... My two slippers swung proudly in the sky. The dog nearly bit off my ankle. What a 'sensation' moment!

Anyway, even if Derrick and I want a dog at home, mom already said to him : "At home, we either have you OR the dog," :P

Come to think about it, maybe it's not so a good idea to have a dog at home nyeheh :D

the He and he

I'd...

wait for friendship first rather than committing into a relationship,

often pray, talk and seek God about him first rather than trusting my feelings,

make myself secure in God first rather than getting security from men,

put my hopes in God rather than hoping in him to make the moves.

If he is the one God intended him to be with me, then I shall not worry about how things would work out and how God pens down our story in His little book (which I think He has that book heh heh). By the way, I'm not implying this on anyone. I guess God will sort things out, make way if He wants to and will take care of everything, even if it's complicated or not :) In simple words, the 'he' shall remain as a question mark to me teehee!

When I pray for the 'he', I'll always know that 'he' too is praying for the 'she'. God's perfect timing tells everything. Maybe I still have other stuffs and commitments to fulfill and learn and be mature in Christ, and that I'm not yet ready for another new commitment. I think only God knows when I'm ready, when the both of us are ready.

Cheers to Jesus who knows all my needs :)

what to do

Thinking about all the things that I need to do, I feel like bursting out in tears. A LOT of things to do :'(

Teach me, dear Lord how to sort my time well. I really mean it. I dislike the amount of time wasted on traveling to and fro to college. There's 24 hours/day to sort out my time glueing my butt on the piano chair and study and read the Bible and spending time with my family rite... Teach me too, especially to REST in Your presence too.

Exams are coming. And I'll be away for The Plan 11- a christian camp 31aug-3sept purpose where I copied and pasted 'God desires His glory to be declared among the nations, his marvelous deeds known among all peoples, and He wants to do this through us.' Topics including:

What will you do to make Him famous?
Stretch! Your vision of God
Stretch! Your Heart for ALL peoples –
Stretch! Your Capacity…

…to make Him famous!!

Psalm 96:3

You have to help me in my up-coming In-Class Assessment (ICA)! And help me not to stress and cry #.#

Heh heh.

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I was just reading my 2008 blog posts. oh dearie, I couldn't understand some of the stuffs that I wrote :S

And I overheard Naruto saying stuffs like " ...these guys are always a pain in my you know what!" LOLOLOLOL. He aint wanna' say the word a**.

Bro and I LOLed.

The little things

It's really hard for me to keep small stuffs like handphones, wallets, housekey, carkeys, pendrives, receipts etc.

I texted Darren, my cousin to pick me up at 8.15pm from the train station. He needed to rush to Sunway by 9pm.

I got in the train from titiwangsa, started digging my big blue bag (again), in search for my tiny handphone. Shucks. I left it in Aiden's car, my college mate. My second time leaving my handphone in my friend's car. Here was what I did : pray. Nothing about my handphone, but asking my Father in heaven to tell Darren I'll be reaching the sri petaling station at 8pm. I thought I didn't want him to come at 8.15pm and rush all the way to Sunway.

My heart did battle awhile, thinking whether Will He do little stuffs like this for me. I tried my very best to have full faith and trust in Him. Once my feet stopped walking, as in standing still on the platform, CCD Proton Saga appeared right in front of my eyes! Dumbfounded, I waved at my cousin.

My heart swelled with pride because of what He has done for me- answering my little prayers. The little things He did just for me made me think over about His great love for me.

He made me one of His important daughters; He helped me do simple things; He has all the time to listen my prayers.

Though we can't see Him physically, we can always acknowledge His existence and appreciate little things like this.

You awesome!! :D

His Timing

Cherry Blossoms (Sakura), I am.

Got this picture during Sunday morning service :)

It'll blossom beautifully only at certain season, certain timing.

Sabar, daphne. Know that there's time for everything, and that Someone is in control of my life's event.

this feelin' again

I just feel like watching all the movies on my laptop now now now! And laugh and cry with a tissue box beside meeee. I think I'll just use my bare palms to clear my face.

But I can't watch movies now.

I have tha' listen to some songs and transcribe them. And then play some scales and, omgosh... here comes the part... contemporary harmony! :'( half of the time in class I cried my eyeballs out (inside lah hehe) trying to understand what my lecturer is talking. But, I'm getting used to his teaching. He's good and fast and the best part is that when he demonstrates naise chords on the piano, every single soul in class comes back to live hehe :D Sometimes I yawn when I open my book, sometimes I get all excited learning something new. Baaah.

Was feelin' kinda moody today, this feeling again, urghhh... of thinking how to get myself up to the standard of being a musician. And my brain wasn't with me today in acoustics class. Never felt so down before.

Jesus pick me up please, I know these discouragement and mundane feelings aren't coming from you.

What's cookin'

I take it all back...

I actually like to bake. Heh heh (if you've read my last post Crotchet Baking). I did mother's moist chocolate cake today and it was fantastic ;) Almost done with melting the toppings.

Dad also made his awesome sambal again. He learnt it from his mom- my babanyonya grandmother. I heard from daddy and his siblings (13 of them) that she was an amazing cook too! Never got to taste her food. I guess both my parents reallyyy love food! They feed us well with what they cook. I never got bored and tired of their cooking. Always something new.

Also, when there's good food, they'll drive all they way there just to eat! There was once we drove all they way to Kuala Langat to eat some seafood. And then another one morning to Ipoh for salted steam chicken and came home after makan. From Kuantan, we drove all the way to Kemaman for soft shell crabs and their local kopitiam, then back to sleep. We even drove down to Melaka for local durians (WOHH super LIKE man!) and cendol. Travelled to cendol stall in Melaka TWICE, still haven't gotten to taste it yet :( So, when Chinese New Year and school holidays come, my aunt and her family from Singapore who also LOVE food, ahh picture the rest of it by yourself :P

Yea, good times :)

Tomorrow's breakfast?? Nasi lemak kukus with telur-goreng-sendiri and, for tea, baked moist chocolate cake :D

I'll continue to learn how to cook and bake. And be good cooks like my mom and dad and their mommies and daddies too. Oh yeah, my maternal greatgrandfather was a chef for the British too during their ruling in Malaysia. Proud, heh though I do not know him.

I loveeeeeee food! No, seriously, LOVE G.O.O.D. food :)

Runs in the blood? Teehee!

His 'less than 3'

God's <3 isn't based upon us meeting some expectation or providing something for Him. He simply loves- completely, entirely, without hesitation.

ODJ- Thursday August 4 2011 : God is near.

<3 is love