Under control

Be grateful. Be thankful.

It's easy to say : Doooooon't worry (smiley).
But really, do not worry when you know that God has everything under control.

Giving

A future which lives only for himself is no future at all.
Live to serve others, encourage and lift each other up.
It is more blessed to give than to get. However, when we Get, we Get to Give.

I love Sunday mornings :)

In the Race

I gota admit. Running on a race requires not only physical strengths but particularly the mental ones too. Without strong mental strength, one will not finish its race because the mind will manipulate the rest of the body to give up.

One of the things in life I've learnt in the book Purpose Driven Life is :
"Do not be envious of the runner in the lane next to you; just focus on finishing your race." Galations 6:4 says that "Do your own work well, and then you will have something to be proud of. But don't compare yourself with others."

Comparing is about what I don't have.

Whenever I feel insecure, that is the time I have to settle my identity in Christ. Only secure people can serve. I fear that I'm not good enough for Him and but now I know that that's a lie! God's gifts are good, we just need to sharpen them. Whatever gifts you have been given can be enlarged and developed through practice. What I have, I gota stretch myself and learn all I can.

Different people have different task to do. So who are we to determine whether he or she is qualified for God or not. The Lord is the Master.
Therefore, mind our own business and finish the task, fulfill our responsibilities, keep our promises, complete our commitments and not leave the job half undone. Wherever field we're put in, there is a purpose for us to be there. Even if it's gota be the smallest service, just play that part.

:)

More than music

I look forward to my Pop and Rock ensemble class. It's my teacher- Mr.Frank. He's so frank that you'll just like him :D

What I'm saying is that, he teaches me/us more than music, of what lies further than just playing well and sounding awezome'. He lectures about the individual, how a musician is supposed to be, the music market, the 'Real' world out there- people and work-  and what causes musicians to play the music. It's not just about making all the money by buying the attention of the crowd with all the thrilling sounds/softwares used but at the end of the day, they are just great sounds without having a real meaning behind the song. Are we pursuing music merely for the money, or are we doing it just because of a really cool cert from a really cool college? He rather hopes that musicians play their music because of what they feel, filled with emotions and thoughts. It's not just a about passion, it's more than a passion. Music impacts and changes lives.

Btw, Mr.Frank was the bassist for the legendary Alleycats band.
;)

Coolies hoho!

Lets do this!

Looking at where I am right now, I'm no longer a little girl who's so carefree to run around without having any responsibilities to worry, a teenager (my time is almost up, reaching the 20' soon) who's comfortable in school, all safe and sound in a what-seem-like-a protected environment.

I'm growing up.

To be woman after God's desires and heart. To face tougher decision makings, tougher environment where it won't be so kind to me anymore (like the dark forest in LOTR?), tougher paths for me to walk through and tougher emotional moments to handle.

I don't think so I'll be able to go through all these in life alone. Nevertheless, I know Someone will. He promised to live in me, with me. And all these will sharpen my character and personality. "You only bring your character to heaven," Rick Warren.

Follow Jesus. Set my heart and affection on things above, follow Him and put my eyes on Jesus. In all circumstances, rejoice in hope! For the joy of the Lord is my strength. Put my hope in Jesus. Never blame others that I didn't follow Him. I should be minding my own business.

Be patient and persevere. Insults will come. But do not run away from my call. Do it with excellence. Let God get the glory.

Hold on to good things. Reject evil. Love sincerely. 

Be steadfast. Pray.

(Ps Raymond Mooi)

Lets do this! God grant me strength.

Last semester

School has started. It has been great- the new stuffs that I'm gonna learn, the course outline, the lecturers and the new improved and organized equipment room (they rolled up the cables so neatly I like!).

But it seems quiet. Maybe it's because I don't see familiar faces around. Or maybe it's just me.
But I do miss some of my friends, in or out of college, we don't go to the same class or what not. Sem 5 has few classes like my previous sem. But this time, it's just... studies and school.

:'/

Such a thing

Lost.

I just want time to stop.

When everything seem to go out of control,
When feelings in me grow numb and cold,
When people do not seem friendly,
And when circumstances become so overwhelming,
Whom do I look to? Where do I cast my eyes unto?

Life in the music line is such a challenge.
Those challenges will only be given to me because my Father in Heaven allows them. He won't allow challenges that are waaay too hard for me to comprehend, to endure.

Demanding-nye!

Teaching little kids can get a little stressful sometimes.

I have to dress up well.

I have to look like a teacher and not 19-year-old dudette.

I have to speak well.

I have to communicate with them the language they prefer.

I have to even communicate with them the language their parents prefer.

I have to keep fit and look healthy, pretty and... slim.

Last week I have some students commented on certain stuffs :

"Teacher, how old are you?" 

-19

"You're so young. Can teach me meh?"

"Wah teacher, you can play the piano also ah?"

-OMG abuden if not why am I teaching you this instrument. Hey kid, seriously...!?

"Teacher, I like you because you're slimmer than my previous teacher,"

I.Am.Speechless.

This generation is so much different than mine. I practiced before I go to class; I don't comment on my teacher's wearing; I don't comment on my teacher's size and age; I make friendly conversation and not thooooose the too straight forward types.

You not only need to ensure the students improve and pass their tests, but you also have to look good.

Teaching these days are way more demanding.

A Friend worth living for

Mom said this :
Friendship is like a train. People get down and get up the train. Some friends will walk away but we can have new friends along the way.

I guess it's really rare to see a good friend to stay in the same train for long.
Friends don't last.
Unless we really care for each other, we will tolerate and accept the other- in happy and crappy times.

It's a sad truth. I always never wanted to believe this. But, friends just don't last.
All except for One. Sometimes it seems difficult for me to understand this loving friendship I have- the one and only one that will last forever- and without this friendship, I would have died.

Because of You, I am alive.
Because of You, I have hope.
Because of You, I learn to be a better person each day.
Because of You, I will be forever sustained by Your love.

Because of You, I will live for You.

You are a friend worth living for. For there is the place I am able to fully trust, commit my plans, dreams, and desires without worrying whether will I get betrayed. Betrayal, is the hardest part for me to forgive.

The best

I believe that when we serve God whole heartedly, He will give us the best.
:)