1 The Lord gives me light and saves me. Why should I fear anyone? The Lord is my place of safety. Why should I be afraid?
2 My enemies are evil. They will trip and fall when they attack me and try to eat me alive.
3 Even if an army attacks me, my heart will not be afraid. Even if war breaks out against me, I will trust in God.
4 I'm asking the Lord for only one thing. Here is what I want. I want to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life. I want to look at the beauty of the Lord. I want to worship Him in His temple.
5 When I'm in trouble, He will keep me safe in his house. He will hide me in the safety of His holy tent. He will put me on a rock that is very high.
6 Then I will win the battle over my enemies who are all around me. At His holy tent I will offer my sacrifice with shouts of joy. I will sing and make music to the Lord.
7 Lord, hear my voice when I call out to You. Show me your favour and answer me.
8 My heart says, "Look to Him!" Lord, I will look to You.
9 Don't turn your face away from me. Don't turn me away because you are angry. You have helped me. God my saviour, don't say no to me. Don't desert me.
10 My father and mother may desert me, but the Lord will accept me.
11 Lord, teach me Your ways. Lead me along a straight path. There are many people who beat me down.
12 My enemies want to harm me. So don't turn me over to them. Witnesses who tell lies are rising up against me. They are trying to destroy me.
13 Here is something I am still sure of. I will see the Lord's goodness while I'm still alive.
14 Wait for the Lord. Be strong and don't lose hope. Wait for the Lord.
So I did my homework in reading Psalm 27. Thanks Esther for this good psalm you've given to me. It encouraged me.
Ever since I was a kid in kindergarden, I was a bully victim. Not to mention at home too sometimes. But those were the past. Some are still haunting me, some I chose to let them go. Nothing much on the physical side, it was more on the words said that penetrated me mentally and emotionally. Traumatized. I couldn't understand why my 'friends' were being cruel to me. I always play the patient, try to win them back by doing good character. Bleak, it seems. Hopeless. I questioned God too why He never found me good Christian friends to uplift and encourage and hang out together, just like Esther and Phoebe whom I really admire their friendship :) David and Jonathan's story touched my heart too every time I read.
Yes, I know God once said to me, "I am your best friend and they is no one else that understands you like I do." I ought to appreciate such remarks made by Him.
So I grew up with many problematic relationships : 'friends' backstabbing me, 'friends' who used me, 'friends' who tell lies about me, 'friends' who have taken advantaged of me bla bla. I used to go home crying to mom after school. Throughout the years of hard times like these, I learnt how to distinguish sincerity in a person or not. Do not have anything to do with the sly foxes. Instead of acting like another queen bee, I've figure out that the best way is to stay away from them! I won't be like them. Even if I want to, I can't, I'm not capable for some good reasons. I'll always be the "tak kisah pon!" person, though as much as I wanted to bark at them.
I guess it was a training ground for me. I think God is preparing me before I enter the entertainment industry where MORE cunning and unscrupulous people I need to deal with.
Ahhh God, please grant me with Your wisdom more and more each day by reading Your word. I'm sure Your favour will go forth with me when I obey you. I really need You to help me to speak up if there is a need to and not just getting stepped by others. Wisdom is important. For the fear (respect) of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. My enemies will trip and fall when they attack me. Why should I fear anyone when the Lord is with me? I'll always remember that I'm different and not to conform with the world's standard.
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