New playground soon!

Ok I just ended my semester today teehee! I made it! It felt really fast- from day 1 orientation to blue scales, chord progressions practices to rushing for projects and assignments and exams... the main thing is that I'm moving on to the next semester soon in July, another busy one but it's gonna be a new playground for me. So bring it on! Plan to get a quality keyboard later on too.

I guess I learnt much on improvisation and theory in contemporary music, basic ones, and will go into the deeper advance ones in the next sem. Had fun applying new techniques and, especially, searching for the right feeling when it comes to contemporary and jazz music. I learnt on the types of people too when it comes to music business and friendship. Some will stand by your side no matter what happens, some will tag on the good musicians for personal gain, and some will back bite on each other to... God knows whatever they're thinking. Then again, no one is perfect or is the kindest in the entertaining industry. But then again, hehe, I'm really thankful to have friends to learn with, eat with (ohhh you should see WHAT and WHERE we eat nyek nyek <3), share stories and feelings with etc. We went through the ups and downs together which I'll treasure them always :) My college is friggin happening. It's like a story book to me.

Anyway, May is ending, and June (duhh) is coming. This time I'll make sure that I'll have a REAL break- a break that I never had before. Still, I'll try to learn as many new songs as possible and polish up some techniques in the holidays. Time to catch up with some of my friends too, I think.

Burned Out

I'm just too tired of everything. I'm tired, especially, in taking care of other people's feelings.

Fatigue, i think

My Semester is ending soon... and KungFu Panda 2 is coming out this Thursday! (says my piano teacher)

You've got it! - I've got nothing to blog about anything.

...and my sista is coming back FOR GOOD on the 21st of August soon!

*British slang* Congratzzulation to muy dearezt siztah! A barrister soon ;)

When she comes home, I'll take her to a good chinese restaurant, facial time, watch movies, shop for clothes, go for a camp (YEAH), and start to sort out our wardrobe and rooms, again.

I'm getting my sister back soon! Heh heh heh, I don't have to call up that man/woman to book some movie tickets, talk over the phone for food delivery, guide someone on the road bla bla anything to do with talking to the UNKNOWN... they just creep me out. Teehee!

I'm also just waiting for time to pass where I can get my freakin driving license, it's taking ages for me. Tomorrow, I'll be going for my PRE-test, yeah PRE-test, not even THE test and waking up at 5am soon because I need to be at William's by 6.30am coz they're gonna pick up some other students along the way which pissed me off with their 'warm' service i paid so much you inefficient people i'm just too sleepy im talking rubbish okay good night bye.

Promise for proper updates reeeeeeeal soon.

Psalm 27

(A Psalm of David)

1 The Lord gives me light and saves me. Why should I fear anyone? The Lord is my place of safety. Why should I be afraid?

2 My enemies are evil. They will trip and fall when they attack me and try to eat me alive.

3 Even if an army attacks me, my heart will not be afraid. Even if war breaks out against me, I will trust in God.

4 I'm asking the Lord for only one thing. Here is what I want. I want to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life. I want to look at the beauty of the Lord. I want to worship Him in His temple.

5 When I'm in trouble, He will keep me safe in his house. He will hide me in the safety of His holy tent. He will put me on a rock that is very high.

6 Then I will win the battle over my enemies who are all around me. At His holy tent I will offer my sacrifice with shouts of joy. I will sing and make music to the Lord.

7 Lord, hear my voice when I call out to You. Show me your favour and answer me.

8 My heart says, "Look to Him!" Lord, I will look to You.

9 Don't turn your face away from me. Don't turn me away because you are angry. You have helped me. God my saviour, don't say no to me. Don't desert me.

10 My father and mother may desert me, but the Lord will accept me.

11 Lord, teach me Your ways. Lead me along a straight path. There are many people who beat me down.

12 My enemies want to harm me. So don't turn me over to them. Witnesses who tell lies are rising up against me. They are trying to destroy me.

13 Here is something I am still sure of. I will see the Lord's goodness while I'm still alive.

14 Wait for the Lord. Be strong and don't lose hope. Wait for the Lord.

So I did my homework in reading Psalm 27. Thanks Esther for this good psalm you've given to me. It encouraged me.

Ever since I was a kid in kindergarden, I was a bully victim. Not to mention at home too sometimes. But those were the past. Some are still haunting me, some I chose to let them go. Nothing much on the physical side, it was more on the words said that penetrated me mentally and emotionally. Traumatized. I couldn't understand why my 'friends' were being cruel to me. I always play the patient, try to win them back by doing good character. Bleak, it seems. Hopeless. I questioned God too why He never found me good Christian friends to uplift and encourage and hang out together, just like Esther and Phoebe whom I really admire their friendship :) David and Jonathan's story touched my heart too every time I read.

Yes, I know God once said to me, "I am your best friend and they is no one else that understands you like I do." I ought to appreciate such remarks made by Him.

So I grew up with many problematic relationships : 'friends' backstabbing me, 'friends' who used me, 'friends' who tell lies about me, 'friends' who have taken advantaged of me bla bla. I used to go home crying to mom after school. Throughout the years of hard times like these, I learnt how to distinguish sincerity in a person or not. Do not have anything to do with the sly foxes. Instead of acting like another queen bee, I've figure out that the best way is to stay away from them! I won't be like them. Even if I want to, I can't, I'm not capable for some good reasons. I'll always be the "tak kisah pon!" person, though as much as I wanted to bark at them.

I guess it was a training ground for me. I think God is preparing me before I enter the entertainment industry where MORE cunning and unscrupulous people I need to deal with.

Ahhh God, please grant me with Your wisdom more and more each day by reading Your word. I'm sure Your favour will go forth with me when I obey you. I really need You to help me to speak up if there is a need to and not just getting stepped by others. Wisdom is important. For the fear (respect) of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. My enemies will trip and fall when they attack me. Why should I fear anyone when the Lord is with me? I'll always remember that I'm different and not to conform with the world's standard.

I'm a... what?

It finally makes sense to me that... I'm a MUSICIAN! Yes, after 4 months of berbonding-bonding with the notes-and-key signatures fellas. Heh heh heh.

Recalling the old days where I used to sort of drag myself to theory classes, digest all the rules of theory. Then came the loooong practice time for the yearly 3 classic classical pieces where I was taught to get every single note right and perfectly in tune with much expressionne. Never thought of pursuing music as my career. And so I did it just for the sake of passing my piano and theory exams.

And yeah my senses are a bit slow- to realize that my music career is going to be my future! Know why??

I DIDN'T HAVE A BREAK EVER SINCE MY SPM EXAM! before spm i went for tuition like a nerdo, struggled with calculations and formulas and building up some science conscience in me thinking that I was going to be a dentist one day; during spm *nerd look*; after spm STRAIGHT AWAY switched my brain to music audition in ICOM. Plus, it was the busiest month for Christians, no breaks at all. I never had a chance to rot at home just like every other school leavers.

Then, first day of college on the 4th of Jan. Culture shock from pure science environment to music. Simply brilliant. But I thank God that His favour is always upon me- good friends, good teachers, good study results and good transportation to school. I'll still continue to pray where this music career of mine is going to lead me in my ministry. For now, I shall focus on how to be a flexible and spontaneous contemporary pianist.

I'm a musician for Christ! :)