Love so much

I love how ODB tells the story of God's love to his children

:

That doesn’t mean we have to act in some special way to make God love us (although our desire is to please Him). Because we are His children we’re loved no matter what we do or fail to do. It means instead that we should think about His love and bask in its radiance and warmth all day long.

“[Nothing] shall be able to separate us from the love of God” (Rom. 8:39). He loved us before we were born, and He loves us now. This is our identity in Christ; it is who we are—God’s beloved children. That’s something to think about throughout the day.

God loves us not because of who we are, but because of who He is.

Refer to Romans 8:31-39

Actually, just read it here hehe :)

http://odb.org/2013/07/08/jesus-loves-me/

Time management

Literally... exhausted for the day.
Maybe I should run by the Charles River one day.
And spend a good evening with my Best Friend.
Admire all His work and creation. The vast beauty of nature and greenery.
I'm so looking forward to go to the beach soon.
Anchor Church picnic and water baptism are coming up next.
We'll be having a second concert-in-the-park on 20th July.

Now, I just want to close my day with Proverbs and ODB.
If we want to be an encourager, speak good, wise and uplifting words, we need to be equipped with the Word and be consistent with our quiet time.
Manage time well.
By hook or by crook, QT is a must!
*Telling self.

Time management man. Something that I'm learning rightt... now.

Who, me? (Joannah's blog post)

This blog post from my friend is so insightful ! Her name is Joannah. From time to time, this can be a good reminder to us. I have her blog on my side wall if you want to check out her blog.

:)

"Don't pick me, I'm nobody!" A lot of people respond like this to God's call. We say, "Pick someone else!" God's response? Nope. We, who are unqualified, is just who God is looking for.

Is he out to embarrass us? Not at all! Jesus is all about His glory. He's going to do a miracle and he purposely chooses someone who couldn't say, "See what I did for God!"

What is God calling you to do?

Don't be afraid you can't do it, you probably can't! That makes you the perfect fit. God specializes in using the unqualified. He can shine the best through those who don't think they're all that. If you step out, he'll supply what you need. When Moses asked God, "Who am i?" God answered with who He was: "I am who I am".

Be brave! God doesn't want someone else; he's chosen you. And He will be with you.

What do I have that God could use? I've struggled with my answer to that question a time or two. There's really nothing extraordinary about my life- nothing I've excelled at. I'm quite ordinary. I guess that's why God can use me; there's no way of saying I can take credit. When God began to use me, it had to be Him. Unqualified was exactly what God found in me.

When we take our focus off how unqualified we are and put our focus on Him, He can really begin to show off. We are nothing without God. God's power is shown off through what He accomplishes in our weakness. Jesus can show others the power of His love to transform a life; power to take the ordinary and make you extraordinary. To make the weak, strong. This power from God is released in our lives when we gain a right view of who we are: not good enough to gain His love, but loved enough to gain His good.

I guess I have all the right qualifications to be used by you: nothing but You! I'm ready. Take my weakness and show Your strength Lord. Amen :)

I can't make a title out of this, smiley!

Always keep your Bible and Journal close to you.

Keep your dreams and goals in your heart.

Tell God how you feel.

Align your heart with His heart.

Know His will.

Spend a lott of time with Him. The more time you spend with a person,

the more you will be like that person,

same frequency, same wavelength.

Share the same passion.

So I am this uber lousy multitasker. I can't eat raisins and study a paragraph. Not even close to reading two lines! Test is tomorrow. Wheepiee for me. It's mid term.
Raisins help in memory. They are healthy snacks!

OKay, I will put up pictures about Boston city hahaha, in my blog. It's just that they are all inside my Facebook. Okay, we'll see.

Eat raisins! All you who are students, hee :D

Little little updates

Snippets of updates :

The settling down period is soon to pass. It's coming to an end soon. I just know it in my heart.

Thank YOUU for the amzaaiiinggg heat in Boston. It feels like home.

My stomach is getting used to Boston food, but not the tap waters... yet.

I told my tongue not to forget what Malaysian food tastes like and be patient. We'll have Malaysian food again, ... later.

There were ups and downs. Definitely.

In every moments, thank God. Like, really. Really thank God.

I thought the first 2 months here were wasted. But no, I learnt some, a lott of stuffs. Maybe not academically and musically, but stuffs like being independent, people relationship, adjusting to new environment, I found a church wheepiee, and my apartment search has ended. I'm moving (omgaah moving? For a 20-yr-old girlie like me, to move all by herself is so so such a challenge) in 2 months time. And and, guess what? In October there will be my first American wedding :D :D Weddings are so pretty! Teehee! My friend was doing a little 'briefing' about American weddings haha, like Bridal shower, Bachelor's night, what to do, what to bring whatever not. Soo fuunnn ;)

Mmh, lets see. I gotta start working towards my goals that I've written down in my career notebook. Every college students are encouraged to have one. After writing it, include God in. We can plan all we want, ultimately God will determine which is best for us. So excitingg right?!

Keep thanking God day and night. If we feel discouraged, tell God to encourage our spirit. I tell youu, prayer can change things man.

Huffington Post Interview with Composer Brian Tyler

Brian Tyler's man is John Williams :D
He plays 43 Instruments, impressive huh.
I enjoyed Iron Man 3 and its soundtrack when I was watching it back home in Malaysia.
So he didn't study film scoring and he didn't know the term Mickey Mousing, who cares! He's brilliant!
Hmm, but I thought that the questions asked would be more specific.
He's a funny guy.
And time management is important , even if he felt like just going on a vacation, but he had to compose.
Okieess, I sound kinda bias always talking abt Brian. I do love other composers too James Newton Howard, JW, HZ, the Newmans. Looks like they are all guys! This industry is so dominated by men.

Snap out of it

Actually right, once you start doing work, your brain stops to think emotional related stuffs.
Coz, that's when you start to realize... that there's SO MANY THINGS to study! And it gets fun :D
Wheepiee!
And when you look back what it seems to be 'sad' or 'lowest ebb' moments, it was a silly moment.
#Picksupselfagain
#Onlyprayercanchangethings

But it is also good to take a moment and think. To see where are we at.
;)

I guess I was just cranking and yappy about unproductive day where I don't seem to learn something but wasted my time, a.k.a. procrastinate.
I only have about 2 years!! *Reminds self.

At lowest ebb

There are times when I think that I cannot make it.

When I cannot do this anymore.

When I want to fall back and not move forward and be a silly tortoise.

When I want to (try to) sleep and hopefully my problems and worries will just go away the next time I wake up.

When I hope to see things go a little easy.

When I question myself of my actions and thoughts.

Where I'm so overwhelmed with the amount of things to do.

When I'm so agitated for not seeing 'ticks' on my to do list notebook.

The best thing to do right now is to spend time in prayers.

When being alone and be away from people awhile and then neighhhhgrbrrghha- hold your horses, may help in times like this to sort things out. To stop a moment and think of, what on earth am I doing? (Or, what the h*** is going on what, wait what am I doing actually?) You know. Just taking that time off and... think. Where which direction am I heading towards now. Is it on the right track? Am I being dragged by someone else's thoughts and opinions into a direction of his/theirs instead of mine or what God told me to do?

Suffocating. 

That was why I shopped. That was why I watched movies. That was why I 'rewarded' myself with food. Not that I 'deserve' it or what. To simply get away with the everyday-tasks, with the must-do(s) and daily-consistency-in-work thing. It doesn't last long, I wish it did, that happy feeling.

Frustrated because I don't know why. What's the reason?

And I guess I know the answer to this. Talk to God.

I think, every person needs encouragement from each other, at some point of time.

Collections

A few of my collections. Vintage, cream colored, pretty flowers, hairbands, nail polish, favorite colors, Forever21ish. I had to start collecting all over again in Boston.

Shopping can help a person to get away with things inside the head, sometimes.

Shop reasonably. Not splashing money.
Money don't grow on trees.

Summer time here is freakishly hott!

Bought so many new clothes at really good deals! Coz of the 4th of July sales.
Babes and girls.
*Shades up.

I havent's showed you all my ear rings and clothes yet. Hah! :) And... shoes.

Time for something

There is a time to hang out,
There is a time to be alone.

There is a time to shop!
There is a time to practice.

There is a time to talk,
There is a time to listen.

There is a time to cry,
There is a time to pick ourselves up again.

There is a time to kid.
There is a time to be serious.

There is a time to love.
There is a time to forgive.

There is a time to think over things.
There is also a time to snap out of it.

There is a time to eat... Wait... There is ALWAYS a time to EAT!
That's why I need to watch my eating.

These are my thoughts on 4th of July, 2013.

Happy happy 4th of July, America.

Foundations first, girlie.

Yesterday I went for my appointment at the Career Development Centre (CDC).
The counselor had to calm me down because I was too far ahead of my future.
So funniee :D :D
And then it all makes sense to me.
I just got here in less than 2 months and I wanted to fly.
In fact, new students like me, who has no working experience before in this industry, should start building up and layering my foundations first.
It was an anxious moment for me but now that I know what to do first, and that I agree to his advice, that is the next right thing to do.
I'm also looking forward to meeting up with the chair and assistant chair for the FS department.
:D
For new insights and guidance.

Of course, in everything, and ultimately, God is my consultant above all. Go with the peace! God's peace. Not the emotions. Not following the flow.

;)

To build a strong elegant building is to first have its foundation.

How I wish

My holiday could have started... NOW.

BUT liberal arts paper is getting my way!

And I keep getting hungry.

Tmr's 4th of July.

My first 4th of July!

:D Looking forward to see what's happening here.

Holiday is the best day everr.

I see people and musicians walking past my window like they're on holiday already !
With shorts and pretty dresses.
With families and kids walking in the breeze.

I see people on bicycles and skateboards.
A guy just walked past me carrying his GOLF BAG!
Whattt??

And I'm in my room typing and typing....and typing on my Pages. 

:((

Omgaah.

Run! Or cover up haha!

So right, I'm feeling a little blissful today hahaha.

Coz right, got lah, haha.

So this super cute guy, student working I met yesterday at one of the counters in school.

And he remembers me today when I went back to the counter.

So shyy 

;P

Hey, cute guy remembers you!

And when I walked out of that place, he looked at me and smiled!

I obviously smiled back and... run! Hahaha.

Basically, I just didn't know what to do. I just cover up ;P

Okay now back to liberal arts paper

;S

Tomorrow's 4th of July!

My first 4th of July!

Looking forward to spending time with my friends :D

My Sisters!

The Wee Wee Sisters heheh!

These are my sisters.
;)
Adeline is my cousin but I'll always consider her as my sibling too. Hahah!
I love these girlies.
So much talent in them.

A little preparation

I only started reading the yellow ones. I haven't begun the blue, green, what purple, and red omgosh.

There's so many things to learn.

These papers of information are only the tip of an ice berg!

Overwhelmed.

The beginning is always the toughest.

Once we get the ball rolling, it should be pretty exciting.

#Cannotgiveup #startofmymusicjourney #prepsforworkingworld

:O

Teehee!

How can one not like to watch movies??

A person could only borrow max 10 DVDs from the BPL.

When I got home, and watched the first movie with my roomie,

T\the next day she came back and showed me her 8 DVDs hahahahahahahaha!

So funniieeeee!

Watchiing movies is one of my hobbies besides shopping and eating (my whole family is a foodie).

One day, I wanna sit in a cinema and watch the movie with the soundtrack that I've composed for it.

By God's grace, I can dream bigg!

;)

PS: If I keep practicing hard like today, and reward myself with one movie after my hard work, and if I keep doing this, it's the best plan everr that I could come out with!

And reward myself with a hot chocolate from Pavements and maybe some ice cream.

Lifeee! So fuun!

*Stares at the other side of my desk that I labelled : ASSIGNMENTS.

Omgosh gotta start doing soon man!

:O :O

Semangat

When I was in the practice building, I can hear different pianists playing their songs.
So muchh to catch upp!! So fuunnn! I'm gonna work REAL HARDD !
I wanna level up my skills!

Semangat betul ni.
2 years is not long at all. So much to catch up. So much to learn!

:D

I'm feeling it. I'm feeling the good pressure to do well.
I guess the whole settling down part is going to pass soon.
Now's the time to shift my focus on work and being a diligent musician.
No time to worry unnecessaries. There'e only time for work and practice.

In all of those, include JESUS in. I can't possibly do all this on my own!

Yayys.

I also fell in love with x19 piano.

Inspired

People are interesting.
They have so many different behaviors, characters and vibes.
If you meet the right people, life will never be the same.
We inspire one another.
I want to meet the right people and I know that I cannot do it myself.
But I have this greatt and best solution. I tell God!

Tell God everything! He will make arrangement and give you what is best for your life.

;)

PS : Today, I have more than 10,000 words to write down about my thoughts and ideas about Boston, music, arts, my dreams and goals and so so much more. But I find my points are all over the places right now :D I wish I could share this with someone.

Feeling reallyy inspired today.

Overwhelmed !

Boston's Outside the Box Music and Performing arts Festival is comingg up!

http://outsidetheboxboston.org/#

I've signed up as a volunteer and I just got back from the volunteer's orientation at JW Marriott.
Felt so inspired.
I just wanted to practice my piano even more right after the talk.

It is a platform for artists and musicians to come and just play and stride their talents to the public. I just lovee the concept of it. It is a great opportunity to put yourself out there and show what you've got!

It's gonna be fun! I've joined the backstage crew in the Stage Area Services and also the artist hospitality team. It will be held at the Boston Common and City Hall Plaza. There will be free music, performing arts and even culinary and beer & wine pavilion and so so much more that is going to happen. I mean, the festival will last for TWO WEEKS.! Don't miss out!

It's only a month and a half and I felt that the city here has SO MANY great and wonderful opportunity to be involved in arts. Normally, I don't like to put so many things on my plate, but coming here just encouraged me to try new things. Everyday is a day filled with possibilities of rubbing shoulders with the best of the best people!

I'm soo excited! And I'm all fired up to just practice my piano I don't know why. Want to make the best out of these two years! And after these 2 years, I want to see myself as a better piano player than where I am right now, also upcoming film composer!

Dream big, coz God is BIG.

Sincerely, who?

A bowl of hot tofu broth soup with lots and lots of seaweed and vegetables in it just... fills my stomach and makes my day.

So many thoughts running through my head. So many secrets in my heart.
I am very tired of thinking about people and analyzing situations.
Being alert of what's going on / sensitive, can be quite overwhelming.
Having sensitivity as a gift can be a weakness too.

Sometimes it's better to be alone. Nobody can hurt you- Meg (Hercules).
Cheeeeesy... but it makes sense to me.

Honest and sincere friends are just hard to find.

But sometimes, handling people is so much of a challenge that I like having it as part of my life.

#thinkstoomuch #beingagirl #whygirlsthinksomuch

Movie Time

Me and my roomie watched this film on a Thursday night/Friday morning. Good film indeed!

I like this film because it shows the reality of musicians in the music business, real world with real crisis.

1 down, 9 more to go.

I borrowed 10 DVDs from the Boston Public Library. And a couple of movie soundtrack CDs.

I found Dear John soundtrack OMGOSH I LOVE DEAR JOHN! And Nemo so cuteee I love the soundtrack I LOVE WALT DISNEY and James Newton Howard's work on Hunger Games.

Watching movie is part of my homework, how cool is that?!

Soundtrack music is aweeeesomee.

Should check James Horner's work too on The Land Before Time!

Aweesome childhood movie. I used to watch it like twice a day until my kakak doesn't want to feed me rice.

;P

LOVING. AND. GOOD.

It's been more than a month now since I left home. (Omgosh I'm actually sososo far from HOME!) Looking at where my current position is, I am filled with gratitude.

Embrace challenges and turn them into opportunity for learning, growth, and maturity.

Really.

When I looked back at my goals, dreams, and breakthroughs written down in my soft red weaved note book, that I want to see in my life, they are all coming to past one by one. Slowly and steadily, I am a conqueror. Because Jesus has conquered everything- even the grave! I am God's daughter. Whoever believes in God will also be adopted as sons and daughters of Most High. To know God is a great relieve knowing that I am not alone! Toughhhh, I never said that it was easy. But I overcome pressure and hard moments when they come because I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, because of God's help when I cry out to Him.

And then I was planning on my semesters which classes to take and divide my credits into a couple of semesters (you actually create your own schedule! Another decision-making part to train myself), I guess I will graduate when I turn 21 or 22. That got me into thinking, that... in 1-2 years time, I'm gonna be a working adult! Am I ready am I ready?? Oh my goodness me.

A month and a half here, I felt as if it was 3 months, in a good way. I learnt soso much in these few days since I got here. There is always opportunity to look out and learn- academically, being independent, having my own views, exercise giftings, mature in the Word etc. It also depends on how we use our time here. Time management is so important. It's funny, I learn more here in a short period of time than that in Malaysia.

The days and weeks pass by so quickly. In all of those days I know that I learn something. Just taking one step at a day. All good things work for good for those who love Him, who are called according to God's purpose. Just keep believing and declaring the good future God set for me. I used to think of Berklee as my future, now that I'm actually a Berklee student, because at tough, despairing and discouraging moments I had, I persevered in my prayers to be able to attend music college in Boston. By God's GRACE and will, I am living in my future that has become my present; my dream that has become a reality. Awesomee. Like... Really. Crazeee lah!

This can happen to everyone- good things in life. I'm no different or more special than anyone. It was just that I held on to God so tightly about my future because I didn't know what to do. So, what to do? Know God's power, what He can do (He can do anything lah!) and who He is, who we are and what power we hold, know our purpose, if we don't, always check with God, and then we'll start to see great things happening. Good fruits will bear and they will multiply. Our work, blessings and gifts will automatically multiply. Okay I have to stop now, else it will never end hahaha. Yays! Serve this God, He is terrific. Not to mention, LOVING. AND. GOOD! Gota check Him out man.

Mama

Mama just got off the Skype with me. She poured me with so many encouraging and assuring words :') About stress, relationships with people and many more. That I'm doing fine, and she also fine tuned me a little on how to be a girl, a woman and a student. Sometimes, I do not need to explain in so many words, she already understood what I was trying to tell her. Dad got off the Skype with me too just now before mom, but he had to rush off for a meeting, he was at home; mama was in school hahaha ;) And when dad was on Skype with me, mama called him to tell him that I'm stressed up. She was on loud speaker and I could hear them talking haha so funnyy.

It was such a relieve after having told to mum and dad of what I'm going through.

:)

And the home work time continues!

I'm feelin' it

After a month plus, I guess I have finally settled down. Tho' I still yet to get my ip soon cause friends have been urging me to do so. I'd say I will get one so that I can whatsapp my family anytime and spend less hours on Skype.

Settling down = start to feel the stress!

This is my next stage- handling stress. It's greater than the ones back home. It feels different. It feels like real college student in the real world, because at the same time I also have to juggle with housework, school work, church, friendships, spiritual growth (very important), keeping up with the budget, get an apartment SOON, when to play and when to destress.

So SO many things!

Actually right...

When I complain, it reminds me of the Israelites. They wanted to go back to Egypt. Coz they are so used to live in that place. They rather be in Egypt than being out of Egypt, even if they have to be slaves for Egypt. But, there's nothing left for them there in Egypt. Outside, in unfamiliar places, there are uncertainties. So they moaned when they left Egypt, when God took them out of Egypt. But we all know that they had to come out of Egypt for their best. For God's purpose.

I have to be hardworking too.

So next time, instead of whining, I should thank God and trust Him as I move on. And keep working diligently.

Expectations

Learning jazz is hardd! D:

So much to cover. And when I think about the amount of expectations on me when I graduate, I literally sighed. I would like to focus on writing and composition, but every musician must at least be good at their instruments too and be veryy versatile with all sort of genre for variety. And it's a bonus if you also know how to work with the knobs, cables and sound too. Like, whattt ?? First you write, then you play, next, you produce too! And you must.be.good.cz.you.are.a.berklee.student.full.stop.stop.stop.

Everyone here knows their stuffs man, no kidding. I just started, and I feel so left behind. As a film composer you need to study a lot of different types of music, musical instruments, how they function, AND you need to CONDUCT. Yes, the one holding the baton. Woohoo for me.

To top that up, you must also be a good speaker. In order to make new friends, for work, for connections and for whatever not.

I will do what I can. I'll just... do my best. D:

(But when I look at the long journey that I'm about to travel, and it's under the scorching hot sun, I get discouraged often. Nevertheless, I shouldn't give up so soon. I have to remind myself always.)

So I heard that when I die, when I'm in heaven, I will also bring whatever that I've learnt here on earth to heaven. So, (I tell myself) try to learn jazz, dafernie.

Getting 100 for quiz today is not good enough you know!

I am so stressed out right now.

To fly, or not to fly

To go back home for winter recess and come up to Boston again, is NOT cheap !!

:3

Unless, I join some competition like "Hey guys! Win a freeee trip to Kuala Lumpur by entering this bla bla contest :D" Nyahah.

If I ever get to go home, I wanna bring in chicken stock, thick black soy sauce and so many other rempah to cook.

I guess, I'm staying here for this Christmas. White Christmas. And Skype with them in my room.

Bringing some family food to Boston again!

Chicken noodle soup broth, with lots of tofu, ginger, chicken, cherry tomatoes, onions, spring onions ala whatever that tastes good in that soup (in my family, we call it the "five dollar bihun") and vegetable tempura for lunchh! Mushrooms, beans, and brinjal!

You know what, the thick black sauce that I bought, in hoping that it will taste the same as the ones back HOME, the thick sauce here was horrible! :( It's not uploaded, because I'm not proud of that dish. :( I accidentally sliced my right ring finger with the chinese chopper today :3

I'll find a way on how to get rid of it- minced pork. I could fry them in my rice the next time @.@ At least the thick soy sauce won't be that strong.

Yesterday, I cooked spicy tofu broth soup with lots and lots of seaweed in it! :D ;D So so good! And diced chicken and so many veges in it. So delicious and fulfilling !

#Healthfreak.

Mom, I do LOVE cooking

I like to go with Asian tonight :D

(Actually, I go with Asian almost... every day ;P)

Steam chicken with hot soup on a wet wet cold rainy day. So satisfying. And with stir fry vegetables, rice and fried eggs.

Soo GOOD!

When I cook, I think of mom. And I realized that I'm a LOT like her when I cook. The style is there. LIke mother like daughter. But she's a wayy better cook than me :) And I wanna be like her! So that I can cook for my own family too and make everyone happy.

I need to go to Chinatown soon and get all my stuffs!

Cooking is so much fun and relaxing. Now time for home works! Can't wait to watch a movie with my roomie Corliss. Movie is part of my home work too. How cool is that??

;)

MOM, I do LOVE cooking like you. Here, I don't get any shelling from you hahahaha :) And all those shelling from you was WORTH IT after all.

:)

It's just emotion taking me over

Today at church, they sang two songs HIS Church usually sings in worship.

:')

So emotional. I just couldn't helped it.

And Pastor Randy's sermon clicked with my quiet time on what I'm supposed to do.

I'm feeling a lil emotional today. Is this home sick? Omgaah. So soon?

Words used

No matter how tough it is, I will NOT declare them with my words. Keep praying and keep believing in God's power and work. Never declare negative stuffs that haven't happened, don't even think of it. Words are powerful. Even if we can't see the effects physically, words affect the spiritual realm. Words can change, create, words bring life or death. Therefore, be very careful when using words.

Now I know why dad has been teaching this over and over again on the family. Words are powerful. Speak encouraging things, speak to bless, speak to uplift- to ourselves and to others. Be very careful with using words.

If others have declared negative words on us, speak to nullify them. There will be a shift, like a change in the spiritual realm. Things will change and curses will be broken. Pray in the name of Jesus. God made the earth by speaking words into it. See how much the weight of words are?

I can't stress this enough on how important it is on us, to us, to souls and inner beings. So, mind our words.

Keep ridin' it.

It's just. so. hardd.

I'm feeling it again about missing people and food in Malaysia. Never thought that it will come so soon- this feeling.

There are many changes I have to adapt, am adapting some; some changes I realize are subtle ones. Sometimes I don't want that change, other times I wish that the changes are for a good reason.

I hate changes.

So many of them come in once. I'm trying to keep myself up in one piece everyday. I even saw myself riding a bicycle, round and round circling the mountain. The higher I go, the steeper it gets. Sometimes it may seem pointless, with all the panting and grasping for air on my bicycle on that mountain. But I know that I will reach the top soon. More challenging I guess, as the further I ride my bicycle. Though, I wished it was a motorbike!

Vroomm.

When we do something

Whatever that we do, we
    do it well, do it excellently; do it with passion, with much creativity.

God will bless the work of His children's hand.

Mum's lil girl

My mother reads my blog. And she tells me about it.
Err...

Hahaha!

Hi mom!

Thankful, like... Really.

You know, every day when we wake up, we should pray and declare for opportunities and favour from God. When we pray, we must also believe. Even though we do not see the results yet, we continue to believe. And declare. Words are powerful. God created the earth by speaking into it.

When situation seems discouraging and dismaying, always tell ourselves that we have God NO MATTER WHAT. God can work things. God can make a way when there seems to be no way. And that things like that happened for a reason, and it is for good. Because we have submitted all our petitions and requests in prayers, knowing and believing that God heard our prayers and He is seeing it into completion and wants the best for us.

God knows the inside out of the hearts of people. He knows the inside out of the situation that we're in too. Let Him be the director, He knows what to do. So, all things work for good for those who love Him, for those who are called according to His purpose.

I thank God for what that has happened. Men can disappoint us, but God doesn't. Trust not on our judgement, but trust on God's judgement. He can see the better picture of what's going on.

I always say that I'm short-sighted, and I know God sees the bigger picture.

Another dream job I always wanted to do

I still keep my dream of one day, to become a Wedding Planner and Events Planner.

There are some prestigious events planning school- in Canada or New York, that I have been eyeing for some time already (since back home in Malaysia, in my purple room, where I used to dream so much in that hearty place. 

:D

So much beauty in planning and getting things all set. A sense of satisfaction and good feeling if I'm able to help others plan and get things done beautifully.

After I graduate from Berklee, if my Father gives the green light, I'd be more than happy to do this as part of my job too. Since SIA air hostess job required me to grow another 0.5 centimeter more, I will pursue something else then ! As God leads hahaha. He knows what's best for me. I have so many plans in mind. At the end of the day, it is He who determines my steps.

I just hope for the best. Excited. Anticipating !

Homeworks are Assignments

Homeworks after homeworks! Weeks after weeks. Imagine those work loads.

But, I'm enjoying them.

:D

One down. A couple more to go.

I like the stress ;PP

And, I just found out that home works here, are part of your assignments! Gota do them excellently. Egg-cellently. Egggggs! I feel like eating scramble eggs now. Hungry!

Homemade Synthesizer - KITCHEN MUSIC by Stephen J Anderson

From reading about "Complete Guide to Film Scoring" homework to googling about synthesizers to ended up found this on youtube. Music study can never end hahaha ;)

NO to being BULAT

Is it just me, or the cold weather that I've been eating non-stop since yesterday and today!

Cheese from Whole Foods, Sun Maid raisins for brains to study, Strawberry Cobbler multigrain cereal bars (loved it!), Reese's peanut butter milk chocolate nougats (Oh they are briiiiilliant!), potatoes, eggs, juices, broccolis and carrots healthy snacks etc. etc. I can't stop eating!

Wait. I don't want to be BULAT!

Hungry lah.

I'm not gonna live by what I see

Both mentally and physically tired.
But I will continue to declare God's goodness and favour on me.

I'm not gonna live by what I see.
I'm not gonna live by what I feel.
Deep down I, know that You're here with me.
I know that You can do AAAANYYYTHIINGGG!

Through You, I can do anything.

John Williams please drop by at my class please please?

http://www.bso.org/Performance/Detail/49323/

John Williams is coming to BSO ! Boston Symphony Orchestra which is just RIGHT THE CORNER of my apartment !!

:O :O ;O

He will be there on the 7,8,11 and 12 of June 2013. Yesterday, my lecturer said that he would try to invite artist as guest speakers to our Introduction to Film Scoring class, which is held on Mondays and 10 of June is a MONDAY. !!

!!!
!!!!!

I pray to God that he will comeeeee to class :D

Oh my goodness John William in my class ! Imagine. !

Dear lecturer, please don't try. It's a MUST :P

BE THE ONE

From ODB.

If our goal is merely service for the Lord, we may burn out somewhere along the line. But if our purpose, like Paul’s and Clyde’s and many others, is to know Christ and love Him, we’ll find that He will give us the strength to make Him known to others. Let us joyfully press on in the strength God gives!

If we serve God by just doing a lot of good works, do what is right and obey the Word blindly (because that's what the commandments said), it may not reached our maximum potential in doing something. We may get tired and burn out at some point of time in life. But if we serve God because we know Him, LOVE Him and know why we are doing it, God will give us joy and strength. Why? We give our whole self to God and He is very pleased, and the joy of the Lord will be our strength. Invest all of our thoughts, feelings, trust, hope, anything that is uncertain for our future and things that we cannot trust on others, we can all invest those things in God. He will not let us down or disappoint us, or shame us in front of anyone. He is a good God. For He has a plan and a future for His children, to prosper and not to harm us. Hope in God.

BE THE ONE who gives himself completely to God so that God can do mighty work through us. Be the one God can use us. God is looking at the heart, not many wants to truly follow Him. So BE THE ONE. He can use anyone. Use- is to do great things, to give glory to God, to do Kingdom work and to build God's Kingdom. Also for God to honour us because we volunteer ourselves to God, because we love Him. "Use" in this context is not being taken advantage of like how people use each other.

We don't have much time here on earth.

And again He does that

Just utterly amazed how God told my friend to tell me (again) what's on His mind:

“The rain and snow come down from the heavens and stay on the ground to water the earth. They cause the grain to grow, producing seed for the farmer and bread for the hungry. It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it." ~ Isaiah 55:10 -11

Dumbfounded !

Cheers to God. Who loves me so much and sends His messengers to speak to me. It's not the first time. But every time this happens, I rejoice !

He loves me this much. He definitely loves YOU so much too.

When two people meet

Every time I skype with my family, especially my mum, I always think that we are so alike in so many ways. Like mother like daughter. That's the saying! And it's true.

We are so alike in character.

But I look like my dad.

So God is fair hahaha.

I understand my mum and she understands me. Before we say something we already knew what each other is going to say and that is wayyy too creepy for me come to think about it.

She is awesome. She supports the family, she feeds the family, she is a great cook, she sacrifices so much for the family, she teaches her kids to be smart, she manages the house well and other "mummy" stuffs she does. It's crazy to be a working mum, to be a wife and the one who manages household stuffs. Most of the time I really love spending time with her, even if it's just doing groceries. And she would accompany me to do my pedi mani all the way in Cheras (actually, she just doesn't want to see me get lost hahaha!). I love you mummy. I really do.

I want to be like her when I'm a mom. Even better. That way, my children will have a supermom and super awesome grandmama.

:D

Of cause I didn't sidetrack my dad. He is my superman. As the head of the house, a responsible father, a loving husband, well everyone is not perfect but he has done so much for the family too. He was the one who drives the family, who took the lead, who made that turning point that this is it! - To make God be part of his family. That's how we all started a church when I was 11. That was also after he quit his political career. Both mom and dad compliment each other in their lives- the strong points, the weak points, their characters one a supporter the other a leader, their ministry, work and whatever not.

So I want to be like my mom. And God shall find me one like my dad ?

;)

August 5th 2012

August 5th 2012

God is able.
The word of God is far above every word and voice.
The voice of God is the final authority.
All things will change. All things will come to past, but God's word doesn't.
God is able. To create, to make something out of nothing, when nothing is happening, He can change something that you think will remain the same way.
He is the creator. He is not asleep or dead. That's why we worship Him.

God is able to forward your life and change your circumstances. So that all of the grace and charismatic gifts from God, all that He can afford, He is giving you abundance (abundantly!), not small portion. The kingdom of the world is limitation.
I (Jesus) am able to make things abound.
Believe in the Word of the Lord, and you will prosper.
Believe in the prophet, and you will be established.
Firmly rooted, though everything will change, but God's Word remain the same.

He leads us by His voice. He is the great shepherd. He leads us to green pasture, not waterfall or dessert.
Faith is invisible. Believe. What you hear from God.
When we obey God, we have faith.
All the matters of life, burdens and worries, listen to God's voice.

Pastor Raymond Mooi @ HIS Church.

He said this before his sermon on August 5th 2012. Found this note clipped in between my home work file. Just wanted to share.

Have a good day teehee!

:)

Francesca Battistelli - Free To Be Me (Official Video)

At twenty years of age
I'm still looking for a dream
A war's already waged for my destiny
But You've already won the battle
And You've got great plans for me
Though I can't always see

'Cause I got a couple dents in my Fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own, I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me

When I was just a girl
I thought I had it figured out
See my life would turn out right
And I'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt, oh

'Cause I got a couple dents in my Fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own, I'm so clumsy
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net]
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me and You're free to be You

Sometimes I believe that I can do anything
Yet other times I think
I've got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and You tell me
That I've got all You seek, oh
And it's easy to believe even though

'Cause I got a couple dents in my Fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own, I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see

I got a couple dents in my Fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own, I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me and You're free to be You

Lyrics from eLyrics.net

EXCEPT that I don't have a FENDER hahaha ;) And I have some dreams I told God already.
Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you- favour, blessings, health, success, relationship, family, ministry and whatever not.

HIS Church Damansara, PJ

I really really miss HIS Church so much. It's been such a great blessing to be part of that family. It was like my hiding place, a safe place for me when I had nowhere to go, when all my hopes were torn apart and my passion GOD and for music just simply fade away.

The old shall pass away. The new one has come. No matter how great the old one is, the new one is always better than the old.

There were stories behind all these but it was definitely part of God's plan to move my whole family to higher ground, to be in HIS Church. I'm really, really glad that we had to go through the hard and rough process. If it wasn't for all those, I wouldn't have found a better place like HIS church that I grow so, so much in the Word, HS and guidance from God, and become of a better character. I was also part of the worship team along with other talented musicians for Christ from all over different countries. Amazing, how God brings people every time when a musician leaves, He prepared another one to join in the music family. The music ministry and leaders have taught me so much to be of great used for God, to dedicate my life, and have prayed, encouraged, uplift and anointed every musicians over and over again to do greater things for God with our talents.

God is faithful to those who are faithful to Him. Therefore, to cut the long story short, of which I can gladly tell those stories anytime face to face to people, how God works and how AWESOME is He in my life, my family's life and HIS Church. One day, I will be a speaker for Christ. In fact, I've come to Boston to be trained personally by God right now. That's another part of the story of how I got here and what He wants to do with me and all :)

So, here's to HIS Church, the family and its 9th Anniversary !

Thank you Hazel Joy for the beautiful card you made for me. I have all of the other cards with me on my study table, Christmas and birthday and I deeply appreciate the time and effort to make them. God bless whatever work you do with your hands :)

With the youths at Winson's palace. Place? Palace? Palace place hahaha.

STOMP time! Those bunch of talented youths really dedicated themselves for Christmas practice.

:)

U just gota LOVE these people. Such a blessing to have them as friends. So much joy!

Christmas 2012. Beautiful deco.

My dear friends.

Yesterday was HIS Church's 9th Anniversary! So glad to see the worship team again, with so many people serving to be a blessing.

Careful with my lil bro there lolol ;PP 

CNY 2012 Greg Yoon was there to join us. The famous Korean tenor vocalist with such a great life testimony He shared.

Pastor Raymond and his wife, Pastor Li Meng and the rest of my friends. These two pastors whom I really really, look up to so much and respect them. So much had they given up themselves to God and ministry and for the people. So much of sacrifices made and faith of so great.

And yes, the family. Not all of them are in the picture here. But they all fit just rightly in my heart. I love them like my bro and sis in Christ.

Joy of the Lord shall be my strength!

I am so full with the joy of the HS right now! Everyday I'm very thankful for the food, the weather, the city, the friends, the scenery, the insights, the word, the whispering promises, the love, everything beautiful you can ever possible imagine off to having someone who loves you so, so, so, so... so... much!

God's peace is with me. Do you know, I have so many stories to write them down here ever since I arrived Boston but I just couldn't? Because I want to tell it face to face! It's more fun and real in that way ;)

So overwhelmed.

:) :D :D ;P :) :)

Today Is The Day

Oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh.

Today is the day... My first class as a Berklee student! So I happily grabbed my student ID tag and slipped it right in to my bag and off I went for class- my first Piano lesson. Nope, I don't want to pose up my ID and photo all here, in case of fraught ;PP Paranoid. Copyright. Nerd.

Lecturers in Berklee are legendaries. Boi am I so glad to be part of the Berklee family.

This evening I have written down all my goals, dreams and breakthru(s) for THIS SEASON that I wanna see them accomplished in my life, 2 years here in Boston city and music college. It's a great way for a summer kick start. To have your mind set right, know what you wanna do, know the purpose of God and have peace with it!

Dream big. Coz our God is big. Jesus, to be precise.

And yes, I am very proud of my Father in heaven. He has done such a wonderful amazing job as a father to me here. Also, my prayers for good godly friends have been answered.

Now that my goals and dreams are all set, I'm also looking forward for the process of having breakthroughs in my life. The good that comes out of a pressured period is an added blessing.

I will keep praying

Today, it just dawn on me that loneliness finally hit me. Do you know what it feels like to have yourself separated from friends and family at home? And the feeling of entering a new place you never enter before, where you have to start over from SCRATCH making new friends, choosing friends (so important), meeting new people, establishing friendship and new contacts, putting things and yourself together and whatever not. To some people it's exciting. To me, at some point of time, it's also exciting. But when I'm all alone in my room, that's where I just let my hair down and talk to God about what I'm really feeling and what exactly I'm going through. Back home everything is already there. You have your "pack/herd" with you, people you trust talking to and you're all so nicey nice and comfortable with things. Well, I just had to go through this, I don't know why. Maybe I know why, but I just don't what to confront it.

I will keep praying- for a breakthrough in all my struggles.